Chapter 26
"You know, I really
wish that boy would answer his phone,"
"Who?" Nick
asked, looking at her curiously.
"Andy," she
sighed, and yawned. "He was going to tell me something about Jessica, and
then we got interrupted. I haven't been able to reach him since."
"Jessica?"
"Jessica Stephenson.
You know her…"
"How does Andy know
her?" Nick stood up and stretched. "Bed?"
"College?" He
suggested, holding her hand as he walked into the bedroom.
"Nope. Andy went to
UCLA, but Jess went somewhere back East. I don't know where."
"So you've had all
these connections to us, and you didn't even know it," Nick smiled
lightly, pulling off his clothes and sliding under the covers.
"Right, us pretty
boys don't interest you," he joked, snuggling up against her.
"Didn't,"
Nick kissed her lightly,
before leaning over and turning out the light. "Well, that's good,"
he said softly, running a hand through her hair.
"Very good,"
she agreed.
"Not that it's done
you a hell of a lot of good…"
"What are you
talking about?"
"We'll be in
"Sure," he said
flatly, turning his head away from her touch.
"Nick, talk to
me?"
"Go to sleep,"
Nick rolled over onto his side, curling up in bed.
"There's nothing to
say," he muttered. "I don't want anyone else to get hurt because of
me, and I won't feel right until I KNOW that's not going to happen."
"It's not your
fault…"
"Yes it is," he
said angrily, shrugging off her embrace and getting out of bed. "I won't
be able to sleep anyway, I'm going to watch television."
"Nick,"
"Yes, it is,
"What are you
talking about? You said he was accusing you of things that weren't true…"
Nick bit his lip and
turned up the volume on the television, his eyes fixed on the screen.
"Yeah."
"So? How's that make
anything your fault?" When Nick didn't reply, she stood in front of the
television, her arms crossed over her chest. "Tell me!"
"I didn't just break
up with him, the way I said before. I beat him up!" Nick shouted angrily.
"He wouldn't lay off with the whole 'you're living a lie,' bullshit, and
threatened to expose me, and I wasn't going to take it. I just, I lost it, I
just kept punching him until he fell down, and then I kicked him, and…."
He stopped, and shuddered. "I beat him up, so it's all my fault," he
finished sadly.
"Don't even try to
make excuses for what I did," Nick interrupted her, his eyes bright.
"You'll be lying, and I don't want to hear it."
"Go to sleep."
"You need your sleep
too," she said softly.
"I'm not
sleeping," he waved for her to move, and began flipping through the
television. "Go."
Nick sniffled loudly, and
stared at the television, hoping something would be on there to occupy his
mind. He looked at the closed bedroom door, and sighed. "Goodnight,
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"Home sweet
home," AJ said forlornly, staring out the window of the van as it sped
through the streets of
"Yeah, right,"
Howie said sadly. Returning to
"I hope she's
ok," Kevin whispered, his forehead pressed against the cool glass of the
window. Kristen had been checked out of the hospital last night, and had
immediately boarded a flight out of the country. He'd missed seeing her by one
day. He missed his wife…
"The doctors said
she's fine, right?" Brian reminded him helpfully.
"They don't know her
like I do," Kevin replied. "She puts up a strong front, but…this is
all my fault, and she must hate me for it."
Nick grunted, and
continued to stare out the window in silence. His fault. It was HIS fault. He
hadn't told the guys what he'd told Tara the night before, about the fight he'd
had with Gayle, and wasn't quite sure how, or when, he was going to. Once he
told them, they'd know….all of their lives were in danger now, because he had a
temper.
"All right, everyone
out," one of the bodyguards stuck his head into the van and yanked the
doors open. "We're in an underground garage, so no need to run."
"Great," AJ
smiled at Marcus as he stepped out of the van, slinging his bag over his
shoulder. "Gimme key, I need a shower."
"Philly's upstairs,
he's got them, as always," Marcus waved him inside.
"Gotcha."
"I'm fine, let me
go," he said angrily, shrugging off Marcus' arms around his waist.
"Sure, that's why
you almost cracked your head open," Marcus shot back, rolling his eyes.
"Just tired."
"You need to get
some sleep, Nick," Howie said softly, looking at his friend with concern.
"I know we're all kind of creeped out, but we still have shows to do. How
are you going to dance, if you can't even walk down two steps?"
Nick glared at Howie for
a moment, before grabbing his bag and heading into the hotel. "I'll be
fine."
"Nick,"
Nick looked down at her,
before shrugging, his expression not changing. "Walk faster, then."
"What's with
Nick?" Brian asked, stopping next to her and seeing the expression on her
face. "He barely said two words the entire trip here."
"He's barely said
two words the past two days,"
"I'm sure he just
needs some time to process everything that's happened to him, Tara, he'll be
all right," Brian said with a false cheerfulness he certainly did not
feel.
"Do you really think
so?" She looked into his eyes, making a face when he refused to meet her
gaze. "You don't even believe it yourself."
"I'm just scared,
"It's how it's going
to end that scares me, Brian,"
Brian gasped softly, and
bowed his head. "I don't want to think about that."
"It's all I can
think about," she said sadly. "When, and how, this is all going to
end."
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"ANDY!"
"I'm sorry girlie,
it's just been a crazy week at work," he said apologetically. "How
you been?"
"Oh, lovely,"
she said sarcastically, shooting a look at Nick sitting on the couch, his eyes
fixed on the television. "Hang on, let me go into the other room."
She waved at Nick, who of course, didn't pay her any attention, and walked into
the bedroom, closing the door behind her. "It's getting bad," she
said sadly, sitting down on the bed. "This guy, what he's been doing, it's
taking one hell of a toll on everyone."
"Things not going
well with Puppy?"
"Puppy's falling
apart."
"Damn,
"So am I," she
frowned, feeling her eyes fill with tears. "I don't know what to do, Andy,
I know he's acting the way he's acting because he's hurting, but….I've never
met anyone before who just kept it all inside like this. I'm used to, well,
YOU, screaming and ranting when you get upset. Not this, I'm going to be a
stubborn asshole and ignore everyone and pout thing."
"That's what he's doing?"
"Yup. He won't talk
to anyone, he spends every spare moment staring at the television, he won't
even let me touch him anymore, he's just shut
down."
"Something will
break him out of it, eventually,
"What's it gonna
take, though? That's what scares me."
"I don't know Puppy
psychology, sorry, baby, I'm just a geek," Andy said lightly.
"So, you were going
to tell me something about Jessica last time we talked, before you got
distracted,"
"Oooh, yeah, how is
my AJ?" Andy asked with a giggle.
"Lovely," she
replied sarcastically. "Wouldn't you be just peachy, knowing someone's out
there trying to kill you?"
"Damn girl, take the
claws off, I was just asking…"
"I know, I'm
sorry,"
"I tell ya, I can't
wait to see you all Tuesday, sounds like it's going to be one hell of a
show."
"Oh sure, Nick can
barely walk straight, Kevin's like the walking dead, and they're going to put
on a concert?"
"They gonna take the
time to relax?"
"I don't think they
CAN relax, Andy, neither can I, not with what's been going on."
"Damn."
"Yeah. So,
Jessica?"
"Oh!" Andy
laughed. "It's not that big of a deal, babe, I just thought you'd be
interested in knowing."
"Knowing what?"
"She had a fling
with one of the guys a year back."
"Yeah, was a tour
fling kinda deal, nothing serious, although, I dunno, I think she really fell
for him. But it's long over now."
"Which guy?"
Andy giggled, "not
Puppy, if that's what you're wondering."
"Which guy?"
"Howie."
"Interesting,"
"Interesting?"
"She just said some
strange stuff to me about being able to lie, keeping secrets, stuff like
that."
"Oh, yeah, that was
a big thing when she had her fling with Howie, he was very insistent that
nobody ever know. That's why I told you before, you can't tell Puppy. She'd
kill me, and I guess Howie would kill her."
"You sleep in the
same bed, girl, how can you really not talk?"
"He hasn't been
sleeping."
"Oh."
Nick looked at her,
horror etched across his face. "Brian."
"Oh god." She
put the phone to her ear, "Andy, I gotta go."
"Why?"
"Something's going
on, I'll talk to you later." She flipped the phone closed, and threw it
down, following Nick into the hall.
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