Part 10:
Because I’m Not Ready to Let Him Go
Mo drove along silently,
checking over his shoulder every few minutes to make sure that the kid on the
floor wasn’t coming to, which he wasn’t. Mo wasn’t sure why he didn’t just pull off to
the side of the road, drag the kid out of the car, and kill him. But something told him to wait. He was obviously associated with Nick and
Brian, and where those two were, there was money, so he was hoping that with
this one, he would find more of the same.
Taking the Kentucky hat
from his head, he tossed it to the passenger seat and turned out onto the
highway, which was starting to build with bumper to bumper morning rush hour
traffic. Blending into the traffic, he
noticed a few people glancing over in his direction. Most likely, it was the sight of the shiny,
luxury town car with a huge dent in the front from the impact with the tree
that caught their eye. Besides, the
windows of the car were tinted, so no one would be able to see the two bodies
in the backseat, let alone make a positive I.D. of the man in the driver’s seat
if it came down to that.
***
Kevin crawled on his hands
and knees to the table in the corner of the room, where the phone sat. Reaching up for the receiver, he pulled the
phone to the floor and sat with his back against the wall, tears blurring his
vision. He punched in the numbers to
Brian’s cell phone. He was praying that
Brian would answer the phone and reassure him, in that calm and wonderful way
that Brian possessed, that this was all just some horrible nightmare. But looking back over to the TV, which now
flashed brightly-colored single photos of Howie and Nick, he had a feeling that
Brian would not be able to help him.
As the phone continued to
ring, he tugged at the neck of his faded denim shirt over and over; it felt
like it was strangling him, as he struggled to breathe.
“Shit, Kev,” he said,
pushing the end button and dialing again. “Get a grip; you’re okay.”
Now the TV was showing
images of Nick from their unplugged concert. Long ago images of him looking so young and
innocent with his long, shining blonde hair and wide-open smile. They did a freeze frame on him singing “I Need
You Tonight”.
Standing up, Kevin dropped
the phone and made his way to the TV. Picking the ancient black and white set up, he
hurled it into the wall opposite him, watching it as it made a loud pop and
then crackle down to its death.
And then, struggling to
make his way back to the phone, he tried to call A.J.
***
A.J. was sitting on the
deck of the new home he had purchased in Port Townsend, Washington, watching
the sailboats move slowly across the water. He was positive that this must be the most
peaceful place on earth, and he was so happy he had taken the advice of his
real estate agent and purchased the Cape Cod style home on the water just the
month before.
Sarah was the one who had
drilled it into A.J.’s head that he needed a place far from the evils of the
business. A place where he could come
and get centered so that he could just be Alex.
Smiling to himself, he could hear her whistling in the kitchen while she
made them a pitcher of lemonade. Closing
his eyes, he could see them when they were older, at this home, surrounded by
their children and grandchildren. Drinking Sarah’s nasty, bitter lemonade with
smiles on all of their faces.
Standing up, A.J. walked
to the edge of the balcony to get a closer look at a beautiful boat in the
distance. He could hear the phone
ringing.
“Hey, babe, will you get
that?” he called over his shoulder.
“How about you put the
chicken on the grill, and I’ll get the phone.”
A.J. laughed to himself at
the not-so-subtle hint from his future wife.
Turning, he walked over to the grill and tossed the two chicken breasts
on with a satisfying sizzle.
His life was about as
close to perfect as it could ever be, and nothing was going to screw that up
for him now.
“A.J., you need to come
quick. Kevin is on the phone…”
***
Dan Fortis was standing in
the middle of what could only be called a media circus. Trucks, vans, and cars now littered the road
outside of the woods where the shootings had taken place. There was a frenzy of activity and chaos, as
reporters from legitimate TV News all the way to sleazy scumbags from the
National Enquirer crawled around the scene, snapping pictures and sending live
remote feeds back to their stations. Dan
smiled to himself, so grateful to be in the middle of it all. So grateful to be the one who first broke the
story.
The police, lead by
Sergeant Cox, had roped off the whole road now. They had also called in reinforcements for
crowd control as the Backstreet Boys fans began to swarm the scene, along with
the same morbid onlookers who seemed to come out in full force to every crime
scene they saw on the news or heard on their police scanners.
Dan walked around the
crowd, listening to the various news stations’ live reports as he checked his
watch. He had managed to score a one-on-one
interview with Sergeant Cox before the police gave a press conference to the
growing crowd. This was in exchange for
Dan shutting his mouth about the way he had just strolled into a secured crime
scene without any of the police officers or their Sergeant even noticing he was
there. As he made his way around a
bright blue van, a couple of teenaged girls spotted him and charged forward,
mascara streaking their faces from fresh tears, fear etched in their youthful,
wide eyes.
“Hey, you’re that reporter
from the TV!” A girl with short,
platinum blonde hair spoke first. Dan
just nodded.
“Did you see them? Did you see Nick and Howie? Were they in a lot of pain?” Another of the girls came forward, choking
out the words in between sobs.
Dan tried to speak, but
found he couldn’t, as another girl with long, brown hair put her arm around the
girl who had asked him if he had seen the bodies.
“I hope that they know
that we came here. I hope that they know
we loved them so much.”
***
Looking up, Brian could make
out a figure on the shore. It was a girl
with long, dark hair, standing with her arms outstretched, willing him to come
to her, giving him the strength he would need to compete the task at hand. He locked eyes with her, never breaking the
intense connection, and suddenly, what seemed impossible became possible, as he
overcame the waves, wind, and rain and made his way to the shore.
The girl walked out into
the water and met him, reaching down to grab one of Nick’s arms. The two dragged him from the water and lay him
out on the now blackened sand.
“He’s dead, isn’t he?”
Brian asked, his voice echoing all around them. She shook her head.
“No, Brian, he’s not dead.”
“But he’s dying. I know he’s dying.”
“Look at him, Brian,” she
replied, bending down to run a soothing hand over Nick’s forehead. “You need to look at your friend.”
“No, I don’t want to look
at him. I don’t want to watch him die.”
The girl reached out,
taking Brian’s hand in hers. “Why won’t
you look at your friend?”
“Because I’m not ready to let him go.” Thunder crashed, and lightening filled the sky
with rage and light.
“Look at him, Brian. You don’t need to be afraid.”
But Brian was afraid. Looking down to the girl with the long, dark
hair, he searched her face and her beautiful eyes, tears running down his
cheeks. And in her eyes, he found
courage.
Slowly, he knelt beside
her and looked down at his friend.
Brian was shocked at the
pale, bluish skin, the large gaping wound in Nick’s stomach, and the pain etched
on Nick’s face. And then, suddenly,
something strange began to happen. Brian
watched as Nick’s features slowly began to change right before his eyes. The pained features of a dying man became the
youthful features of a boy.
A boy with shining, golden
hair and tanned skin.
A boy with long fingers
and big feet.
A boy full of hopes and
dreams.
It was the Nicky Brian had
first met all those years ago in Florida.
Brian reached out a hand
and touched Nick’s face. Nick’s eyes
flashed open, a radiant shade of blue as a bolt of light lit Brian’s fingertips
and sizzled up his arm. And then, as
quickly as he had become a boy, Nick became a man again. The features aged before Brian’s eyes to the
twenty two-year-old with so much life left to live.
Nick blinked his eyes
twice, and then he smiled up at Brian and mouthed the words, “Thank you.” Brian looked down, amazed, as the wound in
Nick’s flesh began to heal, and his skin went from the pale color of death to
the warm flesh tones of life.
And he didn’t look like he was in pain anymore.
“Brian,” the girl with the
dark hair said, “you saved his life.”
***
“BRIAN!”
Nick screamed the single
name from beneath the oxygen mask, where he lay on the operating table. All of the nurses and doctors froze in silence,
their eyes glued to the young man whom they had pronounced dead just seconds
before.
He was still alive.
***
Mo pulled into the stall
outside of his dump of an apartment and turned off the ignition. There was nobody around to question what he
was doing. There never was. Glancing up, he flashed back to the last time
he had been here, less then twenty four hours before, when he had shoved St.
Nick down the metal stairs to Gus and the waiting truck below.
Opening the back door of the
car, he reached in and grabbed Howie by the arms, pulling him out, then
dropping him to the pavement below. Rolling him onto his stomach, Mo then reached
down and grabbed him around his waist, hauling him up to a standing position
that made it easier for him to haul the kid up onto his shoulder. He took the metal stairs two at a time up to
the apartment and unlocked the door. Walking
quickly to the couch, he dropped Howie down onto it and went to the kitchen. Rifling through the drawers, he came up with
a large roll of duct tape and a rag and went back to the couch.
The kid twitched slightly
and began to moan, as Mo pulled off eight large pieces of duct tape and wound
them tightly around Howie’s wrists and ankles.
Then, prying open Howie's mouth, he stuffed the rag in and walked across
the room to the door. Glancing back, he
opened the door, stepped out onto the landing, and pulled it shut behind him,
locking it before heading down to the car.
***
Officer Park came out to
the edge of the crime scene tape, searching for the stupid son of a bitch
reporter that had broken the story. He
spotted Dan standing in a crowd of young girls. Waving his arms, he got Dan’s attention and
called him over.
“Please tell us what you
saw.” The blonde girl grabbed at the
sleeve of Dan’s coat, her eyes pleading. “We need to know.”
“I’m so sorry,” Dan said,
nodding towards the officer who was calling him over. “I-I have to go.” The dark hair girl began to cry harder as he
turned and walked towards the officer. Looking
back at the girls, with their sad eyes and trembling hands, he wished there
were something he could do or say to make things better. He had never seen anybody look as distraught
as those girls looked. Or maybe he had
just never paid that close of attention to people before. His life had become so much about finding the
perfect story to get him recognition that he realized he had forgotten that
there were real human beings behind the stories.
***
Sergeant Cox gave Dan ten
minutes of his time, quickly going through the details he was allowed to give
out. There were three victims. Two dead, one at a local area hospital,
clinging to life. The identities of all
three involved were unknown. There was
the possibility of a link to the Backstreet Boys, but right now, it was
speculation at best and was based on a call made to dispatch sometime in the
early morning hours. Dan quickly
scribbled the words on his pad of paper.
“Have you notified the
families of the Backstreet Boys or the members themselves in order to determine
whether or not they were involved?”
Sergeant Cox glared at
Dan, pausing before he continued. “I’ve given you all of the information that I
can give you right now, Fortis. Anything
else you want to know, you can find out with all the rest of the asshole
reporters out there when we are damn good and ready to tell you.” Turning, Sergeant Cox walked, away leaving
Dan speechless.
***
As the door shut, Howie
blinked his eyes open and looked around the room. He had come to right around the time the rag
was being stuffed in his mouth, but the pounding in his head, along with his
own general confusion, made him slow to wonder what the hell was going on.
Looking around the room,
he realized that he had no idea where he was, but how he got there, that was
another thing. The flashback was
furious, just like in the movies. Visions drenched in pale brown tones, with
slow, dragging sound.
“H-help… I-I-I’m… d-d-d-ying…”
“Nick is dying,
Leighanne. I have to get him help. He’s dying…”
“Whatever you do, don’t
open this door to anybody, do you hear me?”
“But there is a guy in
the road waving us down. He looks like
he needs help…”
“I’m sure that the Nick
and Brian I know aren’t the same guys you know…”
“Two stupid little fucks,
my Nick and Brian...”
Howie winced at the memory
of the man’s hand shooting forward into his face, slamming his head into the
window before he passed out… and then he could remember nothing after that. It was as if time had stopped from that moment
until right now.
Slowly, Howie tried to
stand on shaky legs, his stomach lurching at the realization that both his
hands and ankles were bound. He’d seen a
million late night movies about this sort of situation, and rarely did they
have a happy ending. Hopping forward, he
lost his balance, tumbling into a table before he fell to the ground. He felt something bounce off of his head and
then something else flutter past his face to the ground. Lifting his head up, he could see that the
thing that had bounced off of his head was a worn, brown billfold with the
letters N-C carved into the bottom left corner. And beside the billfold was the second item that
had fallen from the table… Nick’s Florida driver’s license.
Howie tried to push
himself up into a sitting position, his eyes glued to the picture of Nick
smiling up at him from the driver’s license. Shit, he had to get the hell out of there, and
he had to get the hell out of there fast because wherever he was now was where
Nick had been. And for all he knew now,
Nick Carter was dead, and he was going to be next.
Just as he worked himself
up to his knees, the front door burst open, a wedge of light breaking across
the carpet where Howie was struggling desperately to stand.
And looking up, Howie knew he was staring into
the eyes of a madman.
***