Howie and
Liv spent the majority of Friday and Saturday together—away from the
others. While they waited to be seated
at the theatre on Saturday night, Sienna told AJ that she hadn’t seen Liv at
all during this trip, except when they were sleeping. Which, Sienna had to admit, she hadn’t seen
Liv do, since she came in after two on Friday night and was gone when Sienna
awoke.
AJ smiled. “Well, I guess D finally got hooked
properly. Good for them. I wouldn’t complain if I were you.”
Sienna shook her head. “I’m not complaining. I think it’s great that Liv’s happy. In fact, I wouldn’t be surprised if they’re
not already half in love with each other.”
AJ crushed out his cigarette and
hooked arms with her. “Darling Sienna,
your best friend is quite possibly in love with a very good friend of
mine. If I didn’t know any better, I
would think that you were jealous of her because you and Rok can’t get your act
together.”
“What?!” Sienna sputtered. “Where the hell did you get an idea like that
from? Who said Brian and I have any
feelings for each other apart from friendship?”
AJ shook his head and chuckled. “Please.
Apart from Howie and Liv, the two of you are quite amusing to
watch. You pretend not to be attracted,
while really all you want to do is jump each other.”
Sienna hmmphed. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I have never and will never feel the need to
“jump” Brian. It’s a foreign concept to
me.”
“What’s a foreign concept to you?”
Brian asked, coming over to where the two were standing. He carried a cup of coffee, which he handed
to AJ. “Hopefully, that’ll keep you
awake during the show,” he said to AJ, then turned back to Sienna. “So, what’s a foreign concept to you?”
“I, uh, well…”
“Sienna? Sienna McKinnon?” a voice
from behind her interrupted.
Sienna turned to see who it was,
then gasped.
“Josh? Josh Torrel? Oh, my lord,
it’s been far too long!” she said to the tall, dark-haired man who grinned back
at her.
“Only about four years,” he reminded
her. “And you never did keep in
touch. Though I guess I should share
part of the blame for that, too.”
Sienna shook her head. “I never expected to see you. I mean, I know you still lived in the city,
but wow. Four years,” she repeated wonderingly.
Josh smiled. “Yeah, but in four years, Si, you’re still
the same. Still can’t go anywhere
without guys following you, huh?” he nodded at Brian and AJ, who were quietly
observing the conversation.
Sienna grinned. “Sorry, where are my manners? Daniel Torrel,
AJ McLean. AJ, Josh. Oh, and Brian Littrell, Josh Torrel.” The men
shook hands and murmured greetings.
“So,” Sienna turned back to Josh,
hooking an arm through his. “Tell me,
how’ve you been?” They began walking around the other milling theatre-goers and
away from Brian and AJ.
“Not too bad, though there have been
moments,” Josh told her. “Although, you
have certainly come up in the world.
Hobnobbing with celebrities and all.
The Backstreet Boys, huh?”
Sienna grinned. “We’re friends. I met Brian last year, and the others I met
in the last few months. We’re here to
see Kevin Richardson’s last show.”
“He’s playing Billy Flynn, right? I
hear he’s supposed to be really good,” Josh said.
“I bet he is, too. I’ve met him.
He’s a great guy and talented, too.
All of them are.”
“Great. I also hear you’re running a florist shop?”
Josh asked her.
“Yup,” Sienna answered proudly. “It’s been rated one of the best in South
Lexington, Kentucky. I love owning my
own business. It’s more freedom and
gives me more room to be creative."
“And you’ve got creativity in
spades, if I remember correctly,” Josh said.
“How’s Liv? She lives in Lexington, too, right?”
“Yes, she does. Actually, she’s around here somewhere. Then again, she may be with Howie Dorough,
another of the Boys, who’s also here. It
wouldn’t surprise me if they start dating, like, now,” Sienna said, amused.
“Wow, like I said, you’ve certainly
come up in the world. So, Liv’s dating a
celeb, how about you? Anyone special?” Josh wondered.
“Nah, not really. I don’t really have time, either,” she
answered. “The shop takes up a majority
of my time. In fact, Brian had to
persuade me to come here this weekend and used Livvy to help, too.”
Josh smiled. “I see the tenacious Sienna still
exists. I’m glad you’re doing well. Really.”
Sienna tried not to think of how, in
the past, she and Josh had had their share of arguments and had split after two
years of dating, during their time at Columbia.
She shook off the past and looked up
at him. “So, how’s Jenny? Last I heard,
the two of you got married. How’s that
going? Is she here?”
Josh’s smile faded quickly. “Yeah, we were married a couple months after
graduation. You were invited but didn’t
come.”
“Right, I remember. I was in the middle of negotiations for my
shop,” Sienna explained.
Josh nodded. “Anyway, we were married, and she began
working for a company that used to be on the 73rd floor of the World
Trade Center. She was seven months
pregnant, and September 11 was supposed to be her last day at work before
maternity leave.”
Sienna squeezed his hand. “I’m so sorry, Josh. I know how much you loved her. She was a great person. And, I’m sorry about the baby, too.”
Josh shook his head and managed a
smile. “It’s in the past, but sometimes
it hits you hard, you know?”
Sienna agreed. She knew perfectly. Just then, there was a commotion around the
doors leading into the auditorium, and people began to move through to find
their seats.
“We’d better get going,” Sienna told
him.
“Yeah, I’ve got to go up towards the
Mezzanine,” Josh told her, as she began moving towards the doors to the front
rows. He stopped her. “Sienna, would you like to have dessert or
coffee afterwards, with me?”
Sienna smiled. “Of course, I would. Should we meet here, then?”
Josh nodded, then bid her goodbye.
“Enjoy the show,” she called back to
him and watched a smile flash across his face.
Sienna made her way into the theatre
and found her arm caught, suddenly. When
she turned to see who held onto her, she wasn’t surprised to see Brian.
“I was just waiting for you to come
in. So we could get to our seats, you
know,” he explained when he saw her questioning look. “By the way, who is Josh, anyway? AJ and I
were wondering,” he added quickly.
“An old friend from college. He lost his wife in the World Trade Center,”
she told him. “That makes me sad because
she was a great woman. So full of life
and generous with everyone.”
Brian shook his head. “That’s terrible. He still lives here?”
“Yeah,” Sienna murmured, as she
thought of how her two ex-boyfriends happened to live in the same city. Strange how life worked out sometimes, she
thought.
When she spotted AJ waving them over
to where he sat with Rene, Brianna, and his mother, she tugged Brian after
her. When she reached AJ and the empty
seats on his other side, she smiled.
“Hey, are these taken?”
“Nope. Wanna sit?” he invited.
Sienna seated herself, and then,
when she spotted Howie and Liv, she looked up at Brian, who had been about to
sit next to her.
“Hey, Bri? Is it okay if Livvy sits
next to me?” she asked him.
Brian looked over as Liv and Howie
made their way down the row of seats then shrugged. “Sure.”
He ended up sitting as far away from
Sienna as could be managed because between them sat Liv, Howie, John, and
Pollyanna.
Pollyanna patted his hand as the
show began. “Kevin’s going to be
amazing. I can’t wait,” she
whispered. Brian simply nodded and
forced a smile.
As much as he tried to concentrate
on the show and Kevin’s parts, he found himself wishing increasingly that he
had stayed seated next to Sienna. Which
would have made him a bad guy, he reminded himself. Just before intermission, he casually leaned
over to see how Sienna was doing and found that her head was leaning against
AJ’s shoulder as she watched the drama unfold on stage intently. AJ was also watching the show but was playing
with the fingers of her right hand.
Jealously, he wished he were the one she leaned against. Then, realizing how ridiculous he sounded in
his head, he pushed all thoughts out of his head. The rest of the show he spent thinking of
nothing but Chicago and the skill
with which Kevin played Billy Flynn.
Unfortunately, after the show when
Sienna disappeared, jealousy reared its ugly head again. When he asked Liv where Sienna had gone, she
told him that she was going out for coffee with her old, college boyfriend,
Josh. So, Brian spent the ride back to
the hotel alone and steaming.
Inside his room, he had to restrain himself
from throwing a tantrum. It wasn’t as
though she had promised him anything, Brian kept reminding himself. They were adults, who were not dating, so of course they were free
to see other people. Besides, she wasn’t
out on a date. She was simply catching
up with an old friend. Brian repeated
the facts over and over in his head as he packed his things for their departure
from New York the following morning.
He heard
Liv come back around midnight and called out “Good night” to her. Then he started wondering how long it would
take two people to drink coffee, anyway.
Certainly not four hours, he
thought when the clock ticked one o’clock.
He had just
stepped into the living room to pour himself a glass of water when he heard
Sienna’s voice in the hall. Without
thinking about how it was eavesdropping, he rushed to the door and peeked out
through the peephole. Sienna and Joshua
stood talking, but the door muffled the sound of their words. Then, as Brian watched, Joshua leaned in,
cupped Sienna’s face in his hands, and kissed her. Brian realized he couldn’t watch anymore and,
picking up his glass of water, he made it back into his room and shut the door
just as Sienna opened the door to the suite.
He waited
half an hour, until he saw the lights go out under the other door before he
picked up his cell phone and dialed the number of the only person he thought he
could talk to.
Liv woke
out of a dead sleep when her phone vibrated next to her head. Wondering who would be calling her at nearly
two in the morning, she answered. After
murmuring quietly, she promised to meet in the living room. Then, making sure Sienna was still asleep,
she slipped out the door. Sienna waited
several moments before creeping to the door and listened to the conversation
between a rather disheveled-looking Brian and Liv.
“I don’t
know how much more I can handle,” Brian told Liv. “I try so hard not to be needy, just to be a
good friend. But, Livvy, I need her more
and more everyday. She’s never going to
feel the same way, though.”
Liv reached
out a hand and squeezed his reassuringly.
“Bri, why don’t you just tell her how you feel?”
Brian
snorted. “Are you kidding? She’d laugh
at me and say that we had agreed not to date because we liked being friends
more. She doesn’t even know what she’s
doing, either.” He ran his hands through his hair and wearily over his
face. “I never felt this way about
Leighanne, you know? This is the first time I’ve felt so desperate. It’s killing me, and I don’t know whether to
beg her or to cut myself away from it all.”
“What do
you really want, Brian? Besides, Sienna.
Do you want to just separate yourself from her or just get it off your
chest by telling her how you really feel?” Liv asked him. When he didn’t answer, she sighed. “Maybe you should think about it. And try to get some sleep, otherwise, you’re
going to be exhausted tomorrow.”
“I know,”
Brian whispered wearily. “I think I know
what I’m going to do, Livvy. What’s less
painful for me to do, in any case.”
Sienna decided
she couldn’t listen any longer and crawled back into bed. She made Brian that distraught? How could it
be that he needed her more than she wanted him? She’d never had anyone want her
so badly—more than she had wanted them.
She desperately wanted to ease his misery by just agreeing to be more
than friends. Unfortunately, she knew it
wouldn’t be fair to him. Sighing, she
snuggled deeper under the covers and tried to sleep.
The
following morning, Sienna packed everything and walked into the living room and
looked around. Liv was on the phone and
drinking a cup of tea, while Brian stood on the balcony, eating his way through
a bagel. She grabbed a pastry off the
room service tray and stepped onto the balcony.
“Good
morning,” she greeted Brian.
“’Morning,”
Brian said, barely looking at her.
Sienna
tried again. “I love this city in the
morning when it’s just waking up, don’t you?
If I could live anywhere besides Lexington, I’d come back here.”
Brian
nodded. “It’s a good city. Lots of history.” He glanced down at his
watch. “Sorry, I have to make a phone
call. Be ready in twenty minutes,” he
called over his shoulder.
Sienna
nodded then wondered what decision he had made hours before. She walked back in and poured herself coffee
and sat with Liv.
The whole
drive to the airport, Brian was on the phone, and Sienna watched the scenery go
by, wondering when she could talk to him about how he was feeling.
When they
boarded the plane, Brian’s seat was two rows ahead of Liv and Sienna’s seats,
and, during the flight, Sienna finally asked Liv if it was her imagination or
was Brian distant?
Liv
shrugged. “I think he’s tired and
thinking about the Healthy Hearts Club fundraiser he has to plan. It’s coming up soon. At the end of August, I think.”
Sienna felt
like kicking herself. She knew that. Brian had told her a month ago, but had she
been listening, really? Not as much as
she should have, Sienna thought. Well,
she would just see if she could be a better friend and try not to do anything
that might further hurt him. It was a
good thing, Sienna thought as she settled back to take a nap, that Josh had
only kissed her as a goodbye kiss. They
had agreed that they probably wouldn’t really keep in touch, and there was no
point in fooling themselves. The past
would simply stay in the past, Sienna thought, then fell asleep.
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