The package
sat on her desk where it had sat for a day and a half, now. Faith had overnighted it to her, thinking
Sienna would appreciate having a present Brian had left her sooner rather than
later. Finally, tired of wondering what
lay beneath the blue and purple wrapping paper, she broke it open and opened
the box. The card inside read, Thank you. Always, Brian. Lifting out a dancing pig with a clock set in
its belly, she began to laugh. When the
laughter threatened to become hysterical sobbing, Sienna stopped herself and
put the pig back into the box and returned to the financial documents for her
parents’ restaurant.
“Sienna?” a
voice interrupted her work.
She glanced
up and froze. Then, slowly she set down
her pen. “What are you doing here?” she
asked Brian, who stood in the doorway and glanced around the room.
He walked
in and sat at the chair across the desk from her. “I wanted to see you, and Faith told me you
were here. I need to explain everything,
Sienna. Please. Then, if you still can’t forgive me, I’ll get
out of your life,” he told her.
Sienna
sighed. “Fine. Go on, explain. I doubt it’ll do much good,” she added.
“I told you
that the kiss and what happened between Leighanne and me had nothing to do with
you, but I was wrong,” he began. “It had
everything in the world to do with you and the relationship I want to build
with you. The thing is, the whole time I
was with you, I was afraid that I still had feelings for Leighanne. I mean, I missed her as a friend, as someone
I could just talk to. But, I was afraid
that somehow I still cared about her, while the only person I truly wanted to
be with was you.”
“So, you’re
telling me that you didn’t know how you felt? You didn’t know your own heart
and mind?” Sienna asked, incredulous.
“Please, Brian. Come up with
something better.”
“You know
it’s true, Sienna. Why else do you think
I needed a therapist for so long?
Anyway,” he continued, “I thought the only way to find out if I really
had any feelings for Leigh was to just kiss her. And, when I did, I realized I felt
nothing. Not a single thing—except for
happiness because it was only you I really had feelings for. Everything else I was confused about was
residual. It turns out Leigh felt the
same way, and, now, both of us can really and truly move on. I’m sorry that it hurt you, that it made you
feel as though I didn’t care. Because,
really, I care about you more than I’ve ever cared about another woman. Including Leighanne. I’ve got all these crazy, mixed up feelings
inside me for you, and I just want a chance to prove them to you,” Brian
finished.
Sienna
looked down at her hands for several moments and tried to prevent the tears
from overflowing. Brian watched her,
nervous. “Sienna, would you look at me,
please?” he asked her gently.
When she
did, the smile on her face nearly blinded him to the tears that poured down her
cheeks. “Oh, Brian, I’ve been such a
mess,” she whispered. “I hated you for
kissing her and hated Leighanne for having had a past with you. I guess I just let it all get to me,” she
told him.
He rounded
the desk and, kneeling before her, brushed the tears from her cheeks. “If you ever doubt how I feel about you, just
ask me. Talk to me, Sienna. That’s the
only way we can work this relationship.
And I really, really need it to work because I really, really need you,”
he added.
Sienna
laughed and, throwing her arms around him, kissed him. It left him breathless but full of joy
because they were together again, and he felt nearly invincible with her by his
side.
Drawing
back, he stood, perched on the edge of the desk, and peered down at the papers
on her desk. “What’s this? And what are you doing at this restaurant?”
he asked her. “I mean, I know it was
your parents’ place, but what are you doing here?”
“I
inherited it and didn’t want to sell it,” she explained. “So, my uncles advised me to hire a manager,
someone I trusted completely, to run the place.
Every January, I come here to make sure the books are all in order
because I’m the legal owner of this place.”
“Huh. So, why is it called Jamie’s?” Brian wondered.
“Did your parents name it after a relative?”
Sienna
shook her head. “No, they named it after
my brother.”
“Wait, I
thought you were the only child,” Brian reminded her.
“I had a
younger brother named Jamie. He died
when he was three months old of a heart infection,” she told him. “You know how that is.” When he nodded, she
continued. “Anyway, after that, when my
parents opened this place, we agreed to name it in honor of him.”
“I’m sorry
about your brother,” Brian told her.
“Me, too,”
she replied. “I was six when it
happened, and it shook me up quite a bit.
After that, my parents couldn’t have any more children, so I was the
only child. They heaped all their love
on me, and I couldn’t sell this place because it would be like letting go of
them completely.”
Brian
nodded. Then, he grinned. “You know what we need? Besides changing the subject because it’s
making you sad again,” he added. “We
need a song. One that’s just for us,
that’ll remind us of each other always.
And one that I had no part in singing,” he added.
Sienna nodded. “How about the next song that comes on the
radio?” she suggested.
When she
flicked the radio on, a rap song poured through the speakers, and Brian started
laughing. “That’s it! We’re going to
have a 50 Cent song be ours. That’s
incredible!”
She glared
at him then hit another button.
Commercials played on the next station, but, before she could change it,
Brian stopped her. “Wait the commercials
out,” he told her. “I have a good
feeling about this station.” Sienna shrugged and waited.
After the commercials
and the radio station’s jingle, Clay Aiken’s “This is the Night” began to
play. Brian snapped his fingers and
“Ah-ha”’d. “Perfect! Dance with me,
Sienna,” he added, holding out a hand.
Though she
felt ridiculous, she let him hold her and lead her in the dance. As she listened to the lyrics, she felt
better about the song and figured that if they had to have a song, this one was
better than most.
When the
world wasn’t upside down
I could
take all the time I had
But I’m not
gonna wait
When a
moment can vanish so fast
Cause every
kiss is a kiss you can never get back
When the
answer to all my dreams
Is as close
as a touch away
Why am I
here
Holding
back what I’m trying to say?
This is the
night
Where we
capture forever
And all our
tomorrows begin
After
tonight we will never be lonely again
Lift me up
In your
eyes
If you told
me that
Is what
heaven is
Well, you’d
be right
Hold me
close
To your
heart
I would go
with you to the ends of the earth
And we’ll
fly
I’ve been
waiting forever for this
This is the
night
When the song
ended, Brian continued to sway with her, his lips pressed to her temple. The song was perfect, he mused. It summed up everything they felt about each
other. So, good for the American Idol singer, he thought.
Sienna pulled out
of his hold and, framing his face with her hands, kissed him again. This time, they both kept the kiss gentle,
sweet and poured everything they felt about the other into it. She smiled when it ended.
“I’ve got all
these crazy, mixed up feelings inside me for you, too,” she told him. “I was so confused by the time Christmas Eve
rolled around and seeing you with Leighanne made me even more confused.”
“I’m sorry,”
Brian apologized again, but she shook her head.
“No, I don’t want
any more apologies,” she told him. “Just
promise me that the next time you decide to kiss a woman to find out if she
means more to you than just a friend, we should either not be dating, or you
should tell me first.”
Brian
chuckled. “Don’t worry, from now on, I
plan on asking you before I do anything.” Then, remembering something, he
grinned. “Except for this one
thing. The guys and I talked stuff over
the night after we taped Oprah and
figured out a lot of things. We’re going
to record another album, get our old manager back, and they’ve agreed to let me
record my own gospel album. If I ever
get signed, of course,” he added.
Sienna
smiled. “Of course they’ll sign you!
Haven’t they heard your voice? I’m really happy about the five of you coming
together again, Brian. You all deserve
it. I have to confess that I’ve been
listening to your songs, and they’re not so bad. I really, really like As Long As You Love Me. It’s
so sweet, and your verse sends shivers down my spine. Of course, that might just be because I’ve
got you,” she added.
“Uh-uh,
darling. On the contrary,” he said,
scooping her off her feet, “I have
got you!”
Brian stayed with
her for the next three days, then, when he got a call from Kevin saying that
Johnny had agreed to talk to them, he had to leave. They would be meeting Johnny in a remote
spot—somewhere neutral for all of them to talk, Brian explained to Sienna. Howie had lent them a property he had
impulsively bought for himself on Orcas Island off the coast of Washington
State. The Boys and Johnny would meet
there and work through an agreement.
So Brian flew out
to Washington, and, after three days, Sienna finished up going over the books
for Jamie’s and returned to
Lexington. When she arrived home, Liv was
waiting for her, nearly jumping out of her skin with excitement.
“Look!” Liv
squealed as soon as Sienna had made it to her porch. She waved her left hand in front of Sienna’s
face and grinned like a lunatic. Sienna
saw something shiny on her third finger and grabbed Liv’s hand.
“Oh, my goodness.
Livvy!” she squealed. “Howie asked you
to marry him!” Liv nodded, then burst
into tears. “Oh, oh, honey,” Sienna
opened the door quickly. “Come on, let’s
sit and have a good cry. A happy cry,”
she added and settled Liv down on the couch, draping her arms around her.
Liv wept for a
few minutes then sniffled. “I’m sorry, I
don’t know why I’m crying. I’m so happy
I feel like I’m going to burst inside.
Howie was here for the last week and a half,” she explained. “He spent more time with my family, and of
course they love him. It turns out that
he asked my dad for his blessing over Thanksgiving. Thanskgiving!” Liv exclaimed. “He’s been thinking about marrying me since
then! I hadn’t even realized I loved him then, but somehow he knew. God, I love him. I’m so scared, though,” she murmured.
“Of what?” Sienna
wondered. “You’ve got a man who’s crazy
about you. He’s obviously head over
heels in love with you and thinks the world revolves around you. Your family likes him, his family likes you,
he’s asked you to marry him. I don’t see
what’s wrong in that whole scenario.
Unless, you don’t love him enough to marry him,” Sienna said
slowly. “Liv?”
Liv shook her
head. “God, no. Si, he makes me so crazy in love that I can’t
see straight. I love him, and I’m sure
he’s the one. It’s just the whole
marriage deal, you know? I didn’t even think that there was a guy out there who
would want to marry me, at this time last year.
And, now look! He’s given me a ruby! A freaking ruby!” she looked down
at her hand again. “What am I scared
of?” she asked herself suddenly. “If I
screw up, Howie’ll fix it because that’s how it goes, right? When you mess up,
the other person’s always there to help you through it. I need to talk to him.” She stood up. “I’m sorry, Si, I gotta go call him.” And she
was gone.
Sienna smiled to
herself and wondered if she and Brian would ever get to that stage. The marriage stage, she thought. She couldn’t see her life without him and
hoped that he might one day feel the same about her. It might just kill her, she thought, if she
had to let him go and see him with another woman.
Then, shaking off
those thoughts, she decided to stop by the shop before it closed and see how
Marlena had done running it for two weeks.
The taxi stopped
in front of a cozy-looking cottage on a street facing the winter beach. Brian paid the driver and walked up to the
door. Nick opened the door when he rang
the doorbell and greeted him.
“AJ and Howie are
here, already,” he told Brian. “Johnny
called from the airport. He’ll be here
soon, too.”
“What about
Kevin?” Brian asked him.
Nick
shrugged. “Kevin doesn’t want to leave
Kris alone, especially since she could pop any day now. I have a feeling Kristin is going to make him
come up here, though. My money’s on
her,” he added.
Brian agreed,
then, walking into the kitchen, he greeted the other two men. Howie was cooking something while AJ lounged
in a chair at the kitchen table.
“Nice house, D,”
Brian told Howie and sat at the table with AJ.
When Nick continued to stand with a funny, slightly sick-looking
expression on his face, Brian cocked his head quizzically. “What’s wrong,
Kaos?”
Nick ran a hand
through his hair. “If I tell you guys
something, will you promise not to laugh at me?”
AJ smiled,
slyly. “That depends on how stupid
whatever you did is. Did you get
arrested again?”
Nick shook his
head. “No, man, it’s nothing as bad as
that. Besides, I’m way over that. I wouldn’t do it again.”
Howie set a pot
of spaghetti on the table and turned to Nick.
“Nicky, just spit it out. It
can’t be that bad.”
“I’m dating Paris
Hilton,” Nick blurted out.
Three pairs of
eyes glued themselves to him, until AJ shook his head. “No, really, Nick. What’s really bothering you? Nice joke, but I don’t believe it.”
Nick let out a
frustrated breath and dropped into a chair.
“See, I knew you’d think it was funny.”
“You’re serious?”
Brian asked him, leaning forward.
“You’re really dating the infamous heiress?”
“Hey, she’s
sweet,” Nick defended the absent Paris.
“We’ve been dating for a month, and I like her.”
AJ shook his
head. “Man, I never saw this
coming. First, you start hanging out
with Tommy Lee, and, now, you’re dating the blonde bombshell heiress. Are you trying to live the rock star
lifestyle of sex, drugs, and rock and roll?”
Nick glared at
him. “Tommy’s a great guy, and Paris is
a wonderful woman. I don’t do drugs,
anyway. I’ve learned that lesson.
Besides, it’s not like you guys aren’t getting any action, either,” he
countered.
AJ leaned
back. “Gentlemen,” he said to Brian and
Howie, “I believe Nick is under some false impressions. I’m not having sex lately, neither is Brian.
The only one here I presume is having sex is Howie over here. Right, D?”
Howie shook his
head. “I don’t know why I hang out with
you guys. But, yeah, I might be. And the term would be “making love,” AJ. Because Liv and I are in love.”
“See?” Nick
said. “I’m not the only one in the sack
with a woman.”
Brian held up a
hand. “Why are we talking about our sex
lives? Why are you having sex with a
woman you’ve known for a month? And why the hell wasn’t I asked if I was having
sex?”
AJ rolled his
eyes. “Sex is something guys fantasize
about all the time. Didn’t you get the
memo, Rok? Nick can’t keep his hands off
Paris because, well, he’s a healthy male.
Although a month is a short time, Nick,” he shook his head. “And, right, we’re not asking you about yours
because you’re not in a relationship anymore.
And, if you were, you still wouldn’t have done the deed because you take
a year to make up your mind. Remember?”
Brian looked
miffed. “Well, for your information, I
am in a relationship. I groveled on my
hands and knees, and she forgave me. Thank God,” he added. “And, fine, you’re right. I do take quite a bit of time to decide to be
with someone intimately because it’s important to me.”
The phone rang,
and, Brian being the closest to it, he leaned over and picked it up. “Hello?”
“Hi, this is Jane
Kearney. I was wondering if I could
speak to Howie Dorough, please,” a woman spoke on the other end.
Brian looked over
at Howie, who gestured that he didn’t want to answer any calls. “I’m sorry,” Brian told the woman. “I’m afraid he’s not home right now. Can I take a message?”
“Oh, well, I was
just calling to confirm whether or not Mr. Dorough is engaged to be married to
the dessert chef, a Miss Olivia Taylor, at a Lexington, Kentucky
restaurant. I’ll just call back,” she
said and hung up.
Brian placed the
phone on the receiver and turned to Howie.
“Hey, D. Is there something you
want to tell us?”
Howie shook his
head. “Nope. If I did, I would have told you already.” He
paused. “Okay, all right. I asked Liv to marry me, she said yes. There, that’s all.”
Nick was the
first to break the silence. “Wow,
congratulations, Howie. I guess you
decided to ignore us and ask her. I’m
really glad.”
“Thanks. She’s a little nervous, now,” Howie told
them. “She thinks she’ll mess stuff up, but
I told her that I’d fix it. And she
laughed and said she figured that’s how it would work. Of course, if I ever screw up, I know she’ll
fix it, too. That’s how it goes, right?”
Brian
nodded. “I think so. I mean, I think that’s how Kevin and Kristin
work. That’s how my parents worked. It’s a partnership, and I can’t think of
anyone who deserves you more than Livvy.
I’m happy for you guys.”
“Me, too,” AJ
added with a smile.
The doorbell
rang, and Howie went to open it. Johnny
Wright and Kevin walked in and greeted them.
“Kris made you
come, huh?” Nick grinned at Kevin.
Kevin
nodded. “She said this was important for
our family, and that she’d be fine for a day.
So, it turned out Johnny and I were on the same flight up.”
“Yeah,” Johnny
smiled. “We caught up a little. Damn, I’m gonna feel like a grandfather when
Kristin has that baby, man.” He shook his head.
“You were married yesterday, it feels like.” He turned to the rest of
the guys. “God, it’s good to see you all again.”
Brian stepped
forward and hugged him. “It’s great to
have you back with us,” he told Johnny.
“Yeah,” Nick, AJ,
and Howie echoed the sentiment.
Johnny stepped
back and tried to blink back the tears he knew would overflow soon. “Well, men.
Let’s get to business, and then we’ll just catch up,” he said.
They spent the
cold, gray afternoon discussing the Boys’ plans for the future, and why they
were looking for Johnny to rejoin them.
At times, each man ended up feeling weepy, both for the past and for the
new future they would soon forge. As
night fell, they agreed to partner up again, and Kenneth Crear, Johnny’s new
partner, would also manage them. Johnny
agreed to have them meet Crear as soon as possible. The next step they would take would be to
meet with their respective lawyers along with the Jive Records execs and draw
up a formal contract, outlining the responsibilities of each party and the
portions each would receive. None of
them appreciated the fact that Lou Pearlman received a certain amount from
their sales, but they knew that combating that was for later.
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