Prologue
I had tears running down my face,
tears of pain fell onto the table. Did he care more about music then me? I
heard the door open and I wiped my tears away quickly.
"Hey Rach" I heard my
boyfriend say as he gave me a kiss on the cheek and put his bags down on the
floor.
"Hey....Nick" I said
trailing off on his name. He looked at me, he knew something was wrong, I hate
when you know someone for so long they know whenever something’s wrong with
you.
"Babe, what’s wrong?" Nick
asked me as I looked up at him.
"I want you to choose Nick, Me or
your music?" I said not really meaning it like that, but I was sick of
being second in his heart.
"What do you mean you want me to
choose? Rach, what is this about?" Nick asked me as he sat in the chair
next to mine.
"I’m sick of being second in your
heart nick, I'm sick of sitting here for months at a time, not knowing where
you are, and I’m sick of being alone" I said as I got up and walked to our
room.
"Rach, you know you first in my
heart" Nick said following me to our room.
"If I’m first why don’t you show
it?" I asked as I pulled my suitcase out from under the bed and unzipped
it.
"I try to show it Rach, but its
hard when I’m on tour for so long" Nick as he looked me as I packed my
clothes into my suitcase.
"That's what I’m getting at Nick,
I feel like you love your music more then me and your never be able to love me
as much as the music" I said as I zipped my suitcase up.
"Rach, Don’t leave me we could
work this out" Nick said as I picked my suitcase up off the bed.
"No I don’t want to try and work
it out again, you always say we could work it out and you love me for a week
and then you go back it loving your music, Its just not going to work
nick" I said as I walked out of the room and to the front door.
"Rach, you cant go what about the
2 years we spent together and I cant live without u" Nick said, I
could hear the sadness in his voice but un my heart I knew it just wasn’t going
to work out unless he loved me as much as I loved him.
"Ill be waiting for when you
could love me as much as I love you Nick and when you can show it from your
heart" I said as I walked out the door, with tears in my eyes. I had no
choice, I could stay in a unhappy relationship or be unhappy without him which
would almost feel the same cause he was never there when I needed him. I hauled
a cab as I saw Nick running after me. I got in the cab quickly and it sped off
down the street, not knowing what was gonna happen to me during my trip
down the unknown path of my life.
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