Tomorrow Can Never Be
By Nina
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She walked for a
couple minutes before reaching her destination, pushing the stroller along the
way, with a beautiful baby girl asleep.
Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
She kneeled down
in front of the grave, holding a single white rose, softly brushing her fingers
along the inscription.
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
She closed her
eyes, letting her mind wander back, back when he was still with her.
"I do," she said, she had
never been more nervous in her life, but it had been worth it, just a glance
into his deep blue eyes full of love told her so.
He smiled, truly happy, and when it
was his turn to repeat his vows, he did, never breaking eye contact, "I
do," he replied, both of them smiling.
"You may now kiss the
bride," the priest said as the newlyweds had their first kiss as husband
and wife.
There's no use looking back or
wondering
How it could be now or might
have been
She opened her
eyes, the unshed tears in her eyes blurring her vision, "I miss you,"
she whispered to no one, to the wind, to the sky, to him.
All this I know but still
I can't find ways to let you
go
"Baby I have something to tell
you," she said, her voice both nervous and excited.
"What is it?" he asked,
sensing her nervousness.
"I'm pregnant," she said, waiting
for his reaction, any reaction. He smiled brightly and hugged her and twirled
her around the room.
"We're gonna have a baby!!"
he exclaimed, never letting go of her.
I never had a dream come true
Until the day that I found you
"It should
have been me," she whispered softly, then looked up at the sky, "I
know you can still hear me. I can still sense your presence here with me."
Even though I pretend that
I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
"Lizzy needs you," she smiled bitterly; "I wish she
could meet you. She's beautiful. She has your eyes."
Her six months old
daughter slept peacefully in her stroller, but opened her eyes as a soft breeze
was felt.
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about
each day
"I need
you," she said softly, the tears finally falling from her eyes. "The
house seems so big now, it's so lonely. Your face haunts me, I see you
everywhere, but I know you're not there, and it kills me."
And I know no matter where
life takes me to
A part of me will always be
with you, yeah
"It seems
like only yesterday, you were here with me. Holding me, kissing me, loving me,
excited about our child. Little Elizabeth Nikole. I
always told you it was a huge name for a baby," she said glancing over at
the stroller, "But it fit her beautifully."
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost the sense of time
"Two girls attempted to shoot a
21 year old girl who was....."
"This is MTV News with the latest
in the Backstreet World....."
"....the two girls have been
identified as Cassidy Taylor and Jamie Smith...."
"....Nick Carter was shot today,
in an attempt against his wife's life, Diana Marie..."
And tomorrow can never be
Cause yesterday is all that
fills my mind
"...the teenagers have been
arrested, and will be tried as adults...."
"Today, a week after the tragic
incident, Nick Carter lays in a comma still, the rest of his bandmates and
their management, The Firm, haven't told details about his condition.
Meanwhile...."
"...allegedly, whom they intended
to hurt wasn't Nick Carter, but his wife, Diana Carter..."
"...Diana, who is pregnant,
hasn't left the hospital......"
There's no use looking back or
wondering
How it should be now or might
have been
All this I know but still I
can't find ways to let you go
"....Backstreet Boy Nick Carter
was born on January 28th, 1980...."
"...with only 13 years, he had
joined what was to be the biggest pop group in history...."
"...Nick, along with Kevin,
Howie, AJ and Brian, touched many people's lives...."
"....the music industry, along
with millions of fans around the world, is mourning...."
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
"...Nick Carter died two weeks
after the tragic incident...."
"...Carter gave his own life for
his wife and unborn child..."
"The Carter family is very
thankful for all the condolences received..."
"...Backstreet Boys Kevin
Richardson, Howie Dorough, Brian Littrell and AJ McLean have been with the
Carters...."
Even though I pretend that
I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
"Cassidy Taylor and Jamie Smith
have been found guilty....."
"This won't bring my baby back,
what they did cannot be undone...."
"Diana Carter, widow of Nick
Carter, did attend the trial...."
"...they're pleased with the
Jury's decision...."
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about
each day
"You have a beautiful baby
girl."
"What will you name her?"
Brian asked while everybody gathered around Diana.
"Elizabeth Nikole
Carter."
And I know no matter where
life takes me to
A part of me will always be
with you, yeah
"...six months after Nick
Carter's death, his wife, Diana Carter, gave birth to a healthy baby
girl..."
"...Kevin Richardson, Howie Dorough,
AJ McLean and Brian Littrell had a meeting with their management..."
"...they announced in yesterday's
TRL that they've decided to break up..."
"...the most successful boyband
of the world decided to break up...."
"....after the death of the youngest
member of the group...."
You'll always be the dream
that fills my head
Yes, you will, say you will, you know you will, Oh baby
"Cassidy Taylor and Jamie Smith
have been granted....."
"...have been freed in
conditional freedom..."
"The responsibles
for singer Nick Carter's death, have left with their families earlier
today...."
You'll always be the one I
know I'll never forget
It's no use looking back or wondering
"...of the former band the
Backstreet Boys have gathered...."
"True fans of the late Nick
Carter and his bandmates..."
"...in a protest against the
decision...."
"...are against Taylor and Smith
leaving the penitentiary..."
Because love is a strange and
funny thing
No matter how I try and try, I just can't say goodbye
No, no, no, no
Diana wiped her
tears, "Life has been hell without you... I know I have to say goodbye and
let you go... but I can't... I just can't..."
"We were so
happy together.... we have a daughter together... you were so happy... you
never got to be there for her birth..... to hold her... feed her.... What will
I tell her when she asks me about you?"
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Diana stood up,
she didn't know she was being watched. Drops of rain started falling, and she
made sure Elizabeth was covered. Still holding the white rose, she turned to
the grave again, "It's been one year... and no matter how much time passes
by, I will never forget you, I will never stop loving you."
Even though I pretend that I've
moved on
You'll always be my baby
A gun was fired,
the sound made baby Elizabeth start crying. Diana let out a gasp as she felt
something tearing her skin and going into her body.
Sirens could be
heard, and a girl took off running.
Diana dropped to her
knees, wide conscious, gripping the white rose, millions of thoughts going
through her mind....
"You may now kiss the
bride."
"We're going to have a
baby!!!"
"I'm sorry ma'am, he's
gone."
"You have a beautiful and healthy
baby girl."
"Elizabeth Nikole
Carter."
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
"Stop right
there!!!"
A cop finally
grabbed the running girl, who was still struggling to get free. He read her the
Miranda rights and cuffed her. An ambulance was reaching the scene.
Diana finally fell
to the ground, right on top of the grave, the white rose was stained red with
her own blood. Diana let out one last breath and closed her eyes, a single tear
running down her cheek, while her daughter cried incessantly in the stroller.
The inscription in
the grave read:
Nickolas Gene Carter
You truly were my shining and
guiding star
Loving husband, brother,
bandmate
Never will be forgotten
January 28th, 1980 ~ April
14th, 2002
A part of me will always be
"Diana Marie Carter was fatally
shot earlier this evening...."
"...exactly a year after the
tragic incident in which her husband, Nick Carter died..."
"...Cassidy Taylor will go
through trial once again....."
"....Diana Carter left Elizabeth
an orphan..."
".... Nick's mother, Jane Carter,
has asked for justice, and will take legal custody of her grandchild, Elizabeth
Nikole...."
A part of me will always be
with you.......
"Diana Marie Carter, died on
April 1st, 2003..."
"...Nick and Diana Carter will
forever be remembered with love..."
The End
(Lyrics of S Club 7's “Never Had A
Dream Come True”)