What Hurts the Most
By Kaylee
Kayleigh sat there staring out the
window thinking about that fateful day. As
the rain fell down the window, tears fell down her face. She continued to stare
out the window when a song came on the radio. It was Rascal Flatts "What
Hurts The Most". Every time she heard this song memories came flooding
back to her about the day. She cried even harder as the words went straight to
her heart. She will never forget that day for it is burned into her memory
forever!
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
The day when she lost the only one she
ever loved. Brian Littrell. He was the greatest boyfriend she could have ever
wanted. He was famous and not to mention handsome. He was part of a boy band the Backstreet
Boys. They were known world wide. Every girl wanted him and she was the lucky
one that got him. They went out for 2 years.
No one knew about Kayleigh's
past, she vowed never to speak of it again. Well no one knew except Brian. Who
she said saved her from her past. Which he did. She had an abusive father and
an uncaring mother. She had no where to go. Then she ran into him and it was
love from first sight and he let her move in with him away from her parents who
really didn’t care.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
Kayleigh drifted off into space and
the memory of the day came into her head. The song played in the background as
the memory played in her mind.
~*~Flashback - March 2nd, 2005~*~
It was Friday night. Brian and Kayleigh's
2 year anniversary. He called her from rehearsals and told her to get dressed
up and that he was coming to pick her up. She hung up the phone with him and
rushed to the shower to get ready. He was coming to pick her up at 7:30 it was
6:00 now, so she had an hour or so to get ready. Kayleigh hopped out of the
shower and got dressed listening to 'As Long As You Love Me'.
She slipped on a little black dress
that stopped just above her knees. She took out the locket Brian gave her for
her birthday and put that on. She fixed up her hair and put on some make-up. By
the time Kayleigh was done it was 7:30. There was a knock at the door and she
rushed to answer it expecting to see her Brian. Instead of Brian standing at
the door two police officers were there.
"Excuse me miss, but do you know
a Mr. Brian Littrell?" the first officer asked.
Kayleigh couldn’t speak but she managed a nod.
She looked at both officers and finally found her voice.
"Where’s Brian? Is he alright?
What happened?" She asked them with a worried look on her face.
The officers looked at her and asked
if they could come in. She let the officers in and they stood in her kitchen.
"Ma'am I think you might want to
sit down" the second officer said.
She sat down and asked the officers
"what’s going on? please tell me.”
The officers sighed. They didn’t want to tell the girl especially
when she looked like she was ready to go out (which she was).
"Well Mr. Littrell got into a
very bad car accident on 480."
"Oh my God!" She
whispered. Kayleigh couldn’t believe
what she just heard. She didn’t want to believe it.
She couldn’t think.
Only one question ran through her head
'Is he ok?'.
As though the second officer read her
mind he answered her question. "I’m so sorry miss, but he didn’t make
it."
Kayleigh couldn’t think, couldn’t
breath. She was screaming on the inside, but was mute on the outside. It felt
as if a 10,000 daggers pierced her heart.
"We found this in the car on the
passenger seat." the first officer said handing her a small velvet box and
a letter.
She gasped as she took it. She knew
Brian was going to propose to her tonight. She had a feeling anyway and she was
right. She started to cry harder than she was. The officers said their good-byes
and showed themselves out. Kayleigh took out the ring and it was the most
gorgeous ring she ever saw. It had a huge diamond in the middle and small blue
ones around it. She put on the ring and vowed to never, NEVER take it off.
~*~End of Flashback~*~
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m
alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with
this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
To this day she still cant get over
Brian leaving her. She sat there looking through old pictures of her and him
and the rest of the guys. Everyone seemed so happy back then. No one knew that
their lives were gonna change so quickly like they did. Kayleigh came across
the letter that she received that unfaithful day. She opened it up and began to
read it. The letter said this:
Dear Kayleigh,
Hey babe, I just want to tell you how much I love you and that you
mean the world to me. I don’t know how to express how much I love you. I don’t
think words could explain how i feel about you. But
ill try to anyway. You are the Sun to my day. The moon to my night. The light
to my darkness. You are my everything! Baby I love you and want to spend the
rest of my life with you. Without you my world would be dark and gray. Kayleigh
baby Will you marry me?
love
always and forever,
Brian
After Kayleigh was finished reading
the letter she put everything back in the box and then put it up. She went to
bed thinking of her Brian as she did every night but tonight she also had the
words to 'What Hurts The Most' stuck in her head. For some reason the song
reminded her of Brian and how she felt. She went to her bedroom and opened her
window to feel the cool night air.
As the wind blew in the room she
could’ve swore she heard the faint whisper of Brian’s voice. And she did.
"I love you baby and don’t worry I’m always with you watching over
you".....She replied back saying " I know you are and I love you too.
Oh and the answer to your question would be yes i
would love to marry you." with that she fell asleep.
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
Lyrics: “What Hurts the Most” by Rascal Flatts
