Chapter 3
"I can't
accept it, but I know I have to," Kevin spoke solemnly into the phone,
"we all have to accept that Nick's never coming back."
"I'm so
sorry Kevin, " his wife responded sympathetically, "to be honest,
even I have a hard time believing he's gone...he was so young. How's
Brian?"
"Not
good. Leighanne's been keeping a close eye on him and he refused to come
to the press conference today," he shook his head, "he still believes
Nick's alive."
"It's
understandable. They were best friends."
"I know,
but it's not good for him to keep this up. I don't want him to get
sick...the heart surgery was enough to freak us all out and now with Nick gone,
I couldn't take it if he leaves us too..."
"Don't
think that way Kevin. Brian will be fine in time. You have to
believe that."
"Kev,"
A.J interrupted and poked his head through the doorway, "they're ready for
us."
He
nodded. "Honey, I have to go."
"Good
luck sweetie."
"Thanks.
I love you."
"I love
you too...if you need anything, don't hesitate to call me okay?"
"Okay."
Sighing, Kevin
said good-bye and hung up his cell. Talking to Kristin helped him gather
at least some strength to say farewell to his life as a Backstreet Boy...and to
his little brother.
***
"You must
be devastated Ms. Malone."
"I
am," Rachel's tears fell freely down her cheeks, "I loved him so
much."
"Do you
know what you're going to do now? Are going to stay in his home? Or
sell it?"
"I
honestly have no idea," she replied shakily, "I need to deal with my
pain before I can decide what I'm going to do without...without him..."
"Thank
you Ms. Malone. This is Channel 5 news..."
Rachel walked
away sobbing from the cameras and reporters and headed straight for the washroom.
She stopped in front of a mirror and stared at herself for a moment before
grinning in satisfaction. She wiped the stray tears from her
cheeks. That was some performance Rachel! She laughed
inwardly. And the media bought every word! I should really
consider getting a job acting...since Nick, obviously, won't be able to supply
me with the necessities now. She crinkled her nose. Work?
Her?
Yeah.
Right.
She had her
looks, her body, and her wonderful acting skills. She'll have another
bank account in no time. Her grin widened. And what bank account
would be more sweeter than that of another Backstreet Boy? In a
matter of moments she had Nick wrapped around her finger. She just had to
flaunt her stuff. Snagging another one would be just as easy. She
tousled her black hair and removed any left over make up on her face wanting to
look as 'devastated' as possible. Now, who should take Nick's place in
my heart and wallet? Brian? She rolled her eyes. He's
too into his wife to see straight. A.J? She smirked. Sexy,
but not my type. He's always with Sarah anyway. Howie?
Too...nice. Kevin?...Kevin! Her face was beaming maliciously
now. The strong silent type...a challenge...but do-able. And
Kristin? Smug, she shrugged. She won't be hard to get rid
of. Sure, she's pretty, but compared to me? Her smile
widened. Mrs. Rachel Richardson... she nodded
approvingly.
I like it.
***
It was six in
the morning when Nick crept into the kitchen. He was hungry...and he
needed to talk to Caroline. Her guest had to leave today. Caroline
looked up from her stove and smiled.
"Good
morning Dear. Sleep well?"
He managed a
hint of a smile. "It was all right."
"Your
breakfast is almost ready."
"Thanks,"
he sat down at the table and adjusted the patch of leather on his face.
He'd been wearing it for almost a year now and he still wasn't used to
it. It pissed him off. But he'd rather stare at that than at what
was underneath.
"Nickolas
dear, don't scowl like that. It makes me sad."
"Sorry,"
he muttered, "Caroline, we need to talk."
She
smiled. "I was expecting you to bring her up sooner or later.
What did you think of her? I thought she was lovely and--"
"I want
her to go."
Caroline
stared at him, stunned by the coldness in his voice, "Why? She needs
help."
"She can
find help somewhere else."
"Now
Nickolas! If I had the same attitude you have right now, you wouldn't be
here right now."
He
scowled. "It would've been better if I had died that night."
"Nickolas!!"
Seeing the
hurt in her eyes, he sighed. "I'm sorry Caroline. I didn't
mean to say that." He stared at her gentle eyes. "It's
just that I don't like her...she's trouble. I know it."
Caroline
smiled knowingly. "Trouble eh?"
"Yes,"
he nodded firmly, "she could find out that I live here...she could tell
everyone where I am..."
"And
she's beautiful."
He didn't say
anything for a moment, but eventually he nodded again. "I suppose
she is."
"Suppose?"
Nick glared at
her. "Caroline..."
She rolled her
eyes. "Nickolas, she stays."
"She
can't!"
"It's my
house."
Frustrated,
Nick rose from the table and began to pace. "But she'll ruin
everything!"
"Dear,"
she stopped him and put a wrinkled hand over his, "do you trust me?"
He
hesitated. "Y...Yes I do," his eyes softened, "you're the
only one in this world that I trust."
"Then
leave everything to me all right? Rina will not
find out you're here. I promise."
He stared at
her for a long moment before nodding. "Fine."
***
"I can't
believe this weather," Katarina commented
incredulously as she stared out the living room window.
"Believe
it dear, " Caroline replied, "I've spent almost all my life up
here. It won't change anytime soon."
She
sighed. She was really hoping to get a hold of Billie somehow. She
had to let her know that she was all right. Caroline had no phone...or
TV. The only sign of technology was a radio. "Uh,
Caroline. What do you do up here...for fun?"
She
chuckled. "I read and I paint. That's enough for me."
Katarina smiled. "Must be nice to not be TV dependent."
She walked to the paintings on the walls. The detail was exquisite.
She could see that there was a lot of love put into them. She stopped at
one that was a portrait of four very good looking men. Strangely, they
looked familiar. "Caroline? Who are these men?"
"No one
you know dear. Just figments of my imagination."
"Hmm..."
she couldn't take her eyes off the painting. I swear I've seen them
before...
"Rina? Why don't I show the books I have in my
room? Perhaps one will be of interest to you."
She turned
around. "You wouldn't mind?"
Caroline
smiled. "Of course not. You're my guest!"
Katarina followed her upstairs although she still couldn't get that painting
out of her head. There was just something about it...
"Rina?"
Startled, she
looked up. "Yes?"
"I just
asked what kind of books you like to read."
"Oh,"
she smiled sheepishly, "uh...actually I love romance novels..."
***
Nick stared at
his sketchpad, overwhelming sadness clearly evident on his tired face. In
just a few days it would be one year...one year without seeing his family, his
home, his best friends. It only seemed like
yesterday that they were all traveling the world together, making people smile,
making good music. He wished he was with them right now. But he
knew that was impossible. He could never see them again... His eyes
fixed on Brian, his best friend in the world. How was he? Was he
okay? Did he forget about him already? Nick hung his head.
They all probably have. By now, they would have to believe he was
dead. It'd been too long. A tear trickled down his cheek. He
missed them so much...
"HA!
We kicked your asses!" Nick cheered triumphantly.
"Whatever!"
A.J exclaimed, "I demand a freakin' rematch!"
Brian
danced around the bus, still holding on to the controller in his hand.
"Who's the best?!!"
Howie
crossed his arms. "If you say so Brian."
"Face
it," Nick teased, "you guys never stood a chance against the all
powerful Frick and Frack."
"Guys!"
Kevin cried out, "I'm talkin' on the phone here!"
"C'mon
Kev," Brian shouted, "stop bein' so serious for once!"
"Yeah,"
Nick continued, "why don't 'cha come take us on Kev?"
"Don't
man!" A.J warned.
Howie
nodded. "Yeah Kev, they're setting you up!"
"Aww,
don't be such a sore loser guys"
"Nick,
you're about two seconds away from a beating!"
Suddenly,
Kevin came bounding to the back of the bus, pillow in hand. "You're
all about two seconds away from a beating! Now hold still while I beat y'all to
a pulp"
"AHHHH!!!"
Nick
smiled. That was one of his fondest memories. He was only 16 at
that time. They had so much going for them at that time...they had no
idea what lay ahead for them. His smile construed to a frown. He
had no idea that 5 years later, he'd be stuck in his own private hell, not
being able to trust his own shadow. He wiped the tears from his
cheeks. No more crying. He stood and left his room to find
something to eat. I have to move on with my life...
Or
whatever's left of it anyway.
***
Katarina put the book down and wiped her eyes. She was such a sap for
romance novels. She could only hope that her prince charming would be
just as dashing and gentle as the main character of the book she just
finished. Now what? She looked around Caroline's room.
Nothing much in it except for the shelf filled with books and a closet full of
paints and other equipment. She stood and wandered out into the
hallway. I don't think she'd mind if I explore the house a bit.
I doubt she'd hide anything anyway... She went through room after
room after room, not finding anything of particular interest. The rooms
looked like they hadn't been used in years. Sighing, she opened the door
to the last room on the floor. She was growing antsy. She hated
having nothing to do. She stepped into the room, expecting nothing and
was surprised to find an unmade bed, burnt out candles, empty plates and piles
of paper all over the floor. She raised her eyebrows. Caroline's
not this disorganized... She picked up the papers and glanced through
them. They were empty. She shivered suddenly. There was
something ominous about this room. The curtains were pulled tightly shut,
making everything so dark and dreary looking.
Gingerly, Katarina sat on the bed. She shouldn't be in here,
her mind screamed at her, but she couldn't leave... It was that feeling
again...something was telling her to stay... It was then that she noticed
the pad of paper on the nightstand. Curious, she picked it up and opened
it. Impressed she kept on flipping through it. These are
incredible...I didn't think anyone could put so much feeling into a drawing.
She stopped halfway through and frowned. There they were again.
Those men. Why do they look so familiar? She knew she'd seen
them somewhere, but right now, her mind kept drawing a blank. Frustrated,
she concentrated on their faces. They were really cute, especially the
one with piercings! She smiled. Billie had always laughed at her
sometimes weird taste in guys. Billie...Billie! Her eyes
widened. That's where she'd seen them! In Billie's room...on posters!
"Oh my God," she murmured. I know who they are!
They're--
A low growl
coming from her left interrupted her racing thoughts. She looked up and
saw...nothing. She frowned. But I could've sworn-- Then
she saw it. A shadow moving toward her. Her eyes widened.
"Wha--"
"Get out
of my room."
She could see
his blue eyes now. They pierced through her like knives.
"Who--"
"Get
out."
She stood and
stepped as far away from it as he could get. Wait... she looked at
the shadow. That was no ghost. That was a man. A very tall
and very angry man.
"I...I..."
"Did you
not hear me?" he growled.
Katarina's heart never beat so fast. He was frightening. And she
couldn't even see how he looked like.
"GET
OUT!!!!"
Screaming, Katarina fled from the room, ran down the stairs and made a
bee line for the door.
"Rina?" Caroline came out of the kitchen, "what's
wrong dear?"
"I'm out
of here!" she cried out and didn't wait to hear Caroline plead with her to
stay. She opened the door and stepped out in the nippy wind and
rain. She couldn't see a thing, but it didn't matter to her. Any
place would be better than that house with the frightening man.
"Help," she shouted, "somebody! Anybody!! Help
me!!" She was too busy screaming her lungs out to see the tree stump
in front of her and she toppled over it, hitting her head hard on the
ground. The last thing she saw in her mind were those piercing blue eyes
before everything became shrouded in darkness.
***