Chapter
30
Mariah
felt the wind in her hair. The sun was shining brightly, even though it was the
worst day of her life. She stood still, not wanting to move from her spot.
Everyone began to leave around her. People approached her and hugged her,
whispering words of assurance, that everything would be alright.
'Yeah
right,' thought Mariah bitterly.
She
noticed Brian's parents leaving as well, their tear-stained faces gave her a
wry smiled. Mariah walked over to Brian's mother and hugged her. They both
promised to keep in touch, then she left, leaving Mariah alone. She sat on the
ground on her knees. She thought of their time together.
"Well,"
she sighed heavily. "I guess you decided to leave me after all. I thought
we were suppose to be together." Her voice cracked and she felt more tears
spring to her face. She surprised even herself at how much she could cry. She
must've cried enough the last couple days for it to rain a whole year.
"You
said you'd never leave me!" she cried. "You promised! You weren't
suppose to leave!" She cried hysterically. "What am I going to do
without you? What am I going to do?" she whispered.
Mariah
continued to cry until she had nothing left in her. She was completely
exhausted. She slowly got up and laid the rose she had in her hand on his
grave.
"I
love you Brian." Mariah looked one more time on his grave, then turned and
slowly walked away. As she walked away, she heard someone calling her.
Mariah
stopped in her tracks. "Brian?"
"Mariah!"
called the voice softly.
Mariah
listened to the voice and tried to follow it, but she started to struggle.
Something was holding her back. She fought back with all her might.
"Mariah!"
called AJ. "Wake up!" He tried to hold her still and calm her down.
"Brian!
Wait!" she cried. "Brian!" Mariah's eyes flew open.
"Whoa,
it's okay, calm down. It's just a dream. It's okay."
Mariah
blinked several times. "AJ, that was so real."
"Yeah,"
agreed AJ. "No kidding. You must've punched me at least 5 times. If I have
a bruise, you're in trouble!"
Mariah
smiled weakly. "I'm sorry, AJ. It's just that, the dream was so real.
I--Brian--he--" she sighed heavily, not knowing how to explain it.
"It's
okay, it was just a dream. Don't worry about it." AJ smiled at her.
"Come on, come get some coffee with me."
Mariah
smiled at AJ and nodded her head, grateful to have a friend. After they had
bought coffee they went back to the waiting room to find the others had come
back from the hotel. They had gone back to change, but Mariah had refused. She
wanted to stay there in case there was any change. AJ offered to stay with her.
Now,
the group gathered together, waiting for the results of the operation. It had
been 3 hours since Brian had gone in. Soon, however, Mariah and everyone else
began to get restless. Too much time had gone by and they began to worry.
Mariah paced up and down the hallway. Everytime a doctor walked in her hopes
would come up, but then realizing that wasn't Brian's doctor, she fell back to
worrying.
After
a long time of waiting, everyone's hoping began to deteriorate, but they never
said anything to each other. It was unspoken feeling. When they had almost lost
all hope, the doctor walked into the waiting room.
He
looked at the everyone and said, "You better sit down."
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