Chapter 3
“So where did you get to last night?”
Dan asked. I sat down across from him, taking a sip of my soda, contemplating
my answer.
“Went back to the hotel around one,” I
answered honestly. He looked at me about to say something else but then Nick
walked in, trailing Mary behind him, she was reeling off his schedule and as
usual he wasn’t paying any attention. He looked at me questioningly and then
went to get a soda. I took the opportunity to vacate the area and took off in
search of the ladies.
“It’s a cool song, thanks for letting
me have it,” I glanced over Robbie’s shoulder and saw Nick approaching.
“No problem, it really suits your
voice, just don’t expect it to top Angels, that is writing genius,” I replied
looking back to him as he laughed.
“Yeah well all great things must come
to an end I guess,” he shrugged.
“So the rumours are true?” I asked. He
glanced back to me and screwed up his nose slightly.
“Connections not there anymore, good
news for you though I’m going to need someone else to help me write hit songs.”
“Stop targeting my girl Williams, I
saw her first,” Nick joked making Robbie turn round.
“Hey man, I haven’t seen you in
forever, liking the new song,” Robbie replied, shaking Nick’s hand.
“Thanks, I love the new video, how
long the make up take for that?”
“Ohh forever, well I better get going,
Top of the Pops waits for no one. Good to see you guys,” he said before kissing
me on the cheek.
“You too,”I replied. I watched as he
walked away and then looked to Nick’s questioning eyes. “I need to pee,” I said
as I tried to walk in to ladies room but he put his arm up and blocked my path.
“That’s it? You have to pee? Aren’t we
gona’ talk about last night?” He asked not moving his arm.
“What about last night? It happened,
it’s over right? That’s what happened before, why should this be any
different?” I asked finally meeting his gaze.
“If it’s so much like last time, why
are you avoiding me?” He asked.
“I’m not,” Such a lie, such a lie.
“Don’t give me that shit, you weren’t
there when I woke up, you got a separate ride from me, and you bolted out of
the room as soon as I got here.”
“Nick look this isn’t the time ok, it
was just sex” I said trying to get out of the situation, he looked at me and
sighed running his hand through his hair.
“Fine, ok maybe I read it wrong, you
could have just said instead of avoiding me though tree,” he said and I could
see the hurt in his eyes.
“Look your right we do need to talk
about this but not here, after we perform lets go to dinner or something,” I
said lightly.
“Okay, I need to go and get ready;
Mary said something about an interview before the show.” With that he took off
in the opposite direction and left me standing on my own. I could feel the
tears starting to collect in my eyes and pushed the door to the toilets open
and walked inside. Why? Why did I do that? Because you don’t want to get hurt
again, it wouldn’t last and you’d end up hurt and lonely and you could never be
friends again, that’s why. Yeah the sex was great but sex with others had been
great, but there was a connection last night, I felt like he could see inside
my soul it wasn’t just sex it was making love. No Willow, no, it’s to
complicated just explain that to him tonight and he’ll understand. Looking into
the mirror I dried my eyes and fussed with my hair before heading into the
stall.
“I’ll have the fish,” that little
noise must have been me as he looked to me with a smile.
“I’ll have the sausage.”
“Any salt and vinegar on the chips?”
the short round man, with the cockney accent asked from behind the counter.
“Yes and I’ll have a sprite as well
please,” I asked.
With our order in hand we walked out
of the fish and chip shop and over to a bench by the Thames, where we sat in
silence for a few minutes.
“What was that noise you made in there
when I ordered the fish,” Nick asked out of curiosity, looking to me.
“You’re eating a flounder, whose going
to be Ariel’s side kick?” I joked and he laughed.
“Is that why you don’t eat fish?
Because of the little mermaid?” He was in full hysterics now.
“Not the only reason,” I said as I
threw a chip at him as he continued to laugh at me.
“You have to have fish and chips,” he
said in a crappy fake English accent, “It’s the law when you come to England,
the Queen will look you in the tower,” he giggled at his own joke.
“Ehh the views quite nice and I
wouldn’t have to put up with your stinky ass,” I joked.
“Jeez I’m feeling the love today,” he
said only half jokingly and I sighed. “Sorry I didn’t mean it like that,” he
quickly said and then stuck a chip in his mouth.
“No I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have left it like I did,” she said
quietly and I let her continue. “Last night meant a lot Nick but I need some
time for me at the moment, I need to figure out what I want and I cant do that
if I jump right into another relationship.” She was being completely honest
which I admired, she was quiet for a moment contemplating what to say and just
staring out watching the boats on the water.
“After this promotional tour you’re going to be crazy busy with
the tour and I should do something for me in that time,” she silenced me as I
began to say something. “I know I said I would go on tour with you, but I don’t
think that would be wise at the moment, I don’t know what I want and I don’t
want to loose you as a friend. I need to go home and write some crazy sad love
songs about heartbreak how the guy was shit and get it all out of my system.”
She said looking over to me, here eyes were sad and I knew then that she really
did have some things to work through.
“Okay sweetie, I totally respect that, and I’m here if you need to
talk ok? I do have one question though?”
“Shoot,” she replied smiling.
“Did last night make you feel a bit better?”
She rolled her eyes, giggled and I even think I caught a hint of a
blush, “Last night was amazing, and I felt good all three times, Stud,” she
laughed.
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