Chapter 17
He watched as Amber and his mother
walked away into the elevator of Baylor Hospital. He so wanted to go up with
them but right now he was talking to his very angry rep. “I know Kim but I
can’t go right now. I am not in California right now. I had a personal problem
happen; that’s why.”
“Alex you need to come back soon I
already have postponed two of your interviews. Your tour managers are up my
throat wanting to know where you are. I know that you’re going through a hard
time because of your divorce but you have a CD to promote. Alex you need to
tell me what’s going on. If not I don’t know what I am going to do.”
“Fine, Kim I need you to postpone
everything for me till further notice. Because I have a family emergency.” Said
Alex aggravated with the tone Kim was giving him. But she was right he had
forgotten about his tour and interviews and now he did not know what to do.
“Uh, Alex give me something to feed
the press and your management they are not going to take family emergency! Alex
I have worked with you what; 9 years right. I need you to trust me Alex, please
give me something I can use.” She was frustrated Alex was not the type to leave
his career unattended.
He was silent for what seemed forever
when he finally decided he should face the truth. “Kim, I will give one
interview and only one. I want it to be with someone serious but that everyone
watches…I am going to talk about my divorce and the reason I have postponed the
tour. I was thinking Oprah, ET, The Insider, or People.”
“Ok, that’s sounds fair I will work on
it but I still need to know the reason you are postponing the tour?”
“I was on that, look it’s a long story
but if I need to tell you I will. I am with my daughter, she needs me; her
mother is in coma and well she needs me right now. I know I need to explain it
since the beginning so here it is listen carefully Kim because that way you can
find the correct source for my interview. It all started when I was a
Backstreet boy….”
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She felt better now knowing that she
had seen her mother and that she was doing better. Lately she had been staying
up after midnight reading her mother’s journals to understand her side of the
story. Sometimes it was overwhelming what she read and sometimes it was
relieving, it was hard to understand why her mother did not fight for her
feelings toward her father if they were so obvious. She put down the journal
she was reading and closed her eyes as she thought of her father. She still
felt a little awkward toward him but as they spent more time together the more
the feeling left her. She remembered the hug outside the restaurant it made her
feel special. She still had so many questions to ask; one that was killing her
had to do with those weird calls he got from this girl Kim. Was that his new
girlfriend? She sighed and yawned she was pretty tired and without wanting
dosed off to sleep.
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Alex slipped out of the elevator and
walked hurriedly to Pamela’s room. He
had been doing this lately coming in to see Pamela while she was alone. He
didn’t know why he did it or more like refused to believe why he was doing it.
He noticed right away that the nurse had already been in, her hair was brushed
and she had on a light touch of make up. Amber had told him about the good news
that her brain was showing some activity. All of a sudden a smile crawled on
his face at the thought that Pamela was coming too. He took a seat next to her
and sighed as he caressed her cheek. “Have I told you lately how great you have
done with Amber? Well you have you know? Hey maybe I should sing you a song so
your brain can crank it up some more. Let me remember that song you liked from
when I was a backstreet boy… hmm, which one was your favorite? Oh, yeah I
remember, now I do have to say that it is early in the morning and Howie was the
one that sang it so it might not sound as good but I’ll try….ok here I go:”
“You don't run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby, that's why you captured my heart
I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know what you have within
When I look at you, I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere (grow anywhere)
And there's no one I know that can compare
What makes you different, (alright) makes you beautiful (alright)
What's there inside you, (alright) shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me
Hey, yeah yeah yeah
You got something so real
You touched me so deep (touched me so deep)
See material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you
What makes you different, (alright, yeah yeah) makes you beautiful
(alright)
What's there inside you, (alright) shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful
You don't know (you don't know) how you touched my life (touched
my life)
Oh in so many ways (so many ways) I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
You saw the little things that make you beautiful to me (so beautiful)
Oh yeah, yeah
What makes you,
What makes you different, (what makes) makes you beautiful (to me)
What's there inside you, (there shines) shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me
Everything you do is beautiful (so beautiful)
Love you give shines right through me (shines right through to me)
Everything you do is beautiful (ooh, ooh ooh ooh oh)
Oh, you're beautiful to me (to me)…..”
“Uh, there is my messed up version of
the song. Howie would kill me for killing that song.” He laughed and looked at
Pamela lying there motionless and it made him realize that most likely she
hadn’t even heard him sing. He felt sad at the thought that she was going for
two months in coma. He saw the time and realized he needed to give Kim a call
regarding the interview. Slowly he stood up and held her hand in his, he kissed
it and without realizing bent down and kissed Pamela’s lips. As his lips
touched hers he felt fireworks in his stomach and his memory went back to that
night… not wanting to he pulled himself away and walked out without another
word…
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