Sienna
walked into work half an hour late and, acknowledging Marlena working at the
register, headed straight back to her office.
She sat behind her desk and chased down aspirin with water. She had leaned her head back and closed her
eyes when there was a knock on the door.
“Come in,” she called.
Marlena peeked around the door then
came in and sat down. “You look
terrible, Sienna. Are you feeling okay?”
Sienna shook her head and rested her
head on her desk. “Headache,” she
mumbled. “Sorry I’m late.”
“I’m not the boss. You are,” Marlena reminded her. “Seriously, Si. What’s wrong?
Was Christmas that bad? Did your
family do something?”
Sienna thought of her family. Her aunts and uncles had asked her over for
dinner on Christmas, but she had called and cancelled, telling them she was
sick. When Faith had offered to bring
dinner over for her, Sienna had firmly refused the offer. She knew her family was worried about her,
but she didn’t want her problems to become public fodder.
“No,” she told Marlena. “My family was great. I just don’t feel well.”
Marlena didn’t believe it. “Uh-uh.
There’s something else. Was it
Brian? Aha,” she said, triumphantly when
she saw Sienna’s wince. “What did he do?
Did he hurt you? Can I go beat him up?”
Sienna lifted her head and looked at
Marlena. “I don’t know when it happened,
Marlena, but I’m glad we’re close enough that you can offer to go hurt someone
for me because you think he hurt me.
Thank God,” she whispered.
Marlena was seriously concerned,
now. “Sienna, what did he do?”
Sienna shook her head. “I don’t want to talk about it. Please.
I just need a few minutes, and then I’ll be back to work. You’d better go make sure people aren’t
walking away with my flowers,” she said to Marlena.
“Okay,” Marlena said, standing up,
“but if you need to talk, I’m right here.”
“Thanks,” Sienna answered.
When Marlena had gone, she wished
furiously for Liv. But Liv had taken a
well-deserved break and was spending the week between Christmas Eve and New
Year’s with Howie and his family in Orlando.
Sienna didn’t want to call her, either, because she knew that Liv would
abandon all plans and rush back home.
No, Sienna thought, better to let Liv enjoy her time with Howie. Besides, she didn’t want everyone to know
what was going on. It was embarrassing
to be the other woman in the triangle.
Even more pitiful was the fact that she was in love with a man who
didn’t truly care about her.
Shaking off the burgeoning
depression, Sienna stood, brushed a hand over her hair, and, firming her
shoulders, strode out into the storefront determined not to let her hurt ruin
the pleasure her work gave her.
Over the following weeks, Brian
tried calling Sienna, dropping by her home and shop, determined to
apologize. He wanted to explain that the
kiss had meant nothing but an ending. It
hadn’t even lasted more than five seconds.
Unfortunately, every time he went to her cottage, she wouldn’t answer
the door, nor pick up the phone. The few
times he had dropped by the shop, Marlena had given him an evil glare and told
him that Sienna was busy. She had
prevented him from going back to the office, and Brian had eventually given
up. Perhaps, he thought, it was best to
give her time. Maybe time was all it
took. He should know, he thought. Hadn’t he sung a song about it, anyway?
One night, three days after New
Year’s, the first he had hoped to celebrate with Sienna, his doorbell
chimed. When he answered, Liv pushed him
back into the foyer.
“Hey,” Brian complained. “You can’t just walk into my house and shove
me around, you know.”
Liv’s brows lifted. “Oh yeah? Well, you can’t blatantly kiss your
ex-fiancée where my best friend, the woman you swore you cared about, can see
you. How could you do that, Brian?” she
wondered, disgusted.
“Livvy, I tried explaining what
really happened to her,” Brian began.
“Yeah, well, save it, pal,” Liv cut
him off. “Tell it to someone who really
cares. Because, right now, all I know is
that you hurt Sienna and should suffer a thousand agonies for it. And, to think I thought you might be good for
her.”
Brian took a deep breath. “Liv, please, I’m asking you to listen. Just listen and then say and think whatever
you want about me. Please,” he asked.
Liv thought for a moment, then
shrugged. “Fine, but, believe me, you
can’t say anything that will make me see you as anything other than the slime
you are,” she told him.
“Okay,” Brian began and told her
what had happened between Leighanne and him.
When he finished, Liv watched him
for long moments. “Okay,” she said,
finally. “Do you have anything strong to
drink? I think I need one, now.”
Brian poured her Scotch, and she
tipped the glass back. When she set it
down, she turned to him. “Okay. Fine, I see your point. I understand the whole closure deal. But Brian, Sienna doesn’t and can’t see it
that way. You have to understand that,
too. From the day the two of you began
dating, Leighanne’s been there. Si’s
usually never insecure about anything, but she cares about you more than she’s
ever cared about any man she’s been with.
When she was already insecure, Leighanne shows up again at your parents’
house, and, despite your reassurances, she couldn’t help but be a little
worried about your relationship. I mean,
seriously. When the two of you first
met, you were still pining after your ex, and, after a year, how much could
really change? That’s what Sienna’s
thinking is,” Liv reiterated, when she noticed Brian about to protest. “You’ve had the power to hurt her since the
two of you became friends because she’s always cared about you, even when she
tried not to. And, unfortunately, you
did hurt her. Even if you didn’t mean
to,” she added.
“So, now what?” Brian wondered. “I need her, Liv. She’s become one of the most important people
in my life, and I don’t know how long I can go without her.”
“Give it time,” Liv said,
simply. “Really, that’s all she
needs. Once she’s recovered from the
emotional wounds, she’ll be able to see a little more clearly. Run your case, then, and see what
happens. I can’t make any promises, but
time’s the best route you’ve got.” She
stood. “I have to get going. I promised Howie I’d call tonight.”
“How’s that going?” Brian asked her.
Liv smiled. “It’s going amazingly,” she told him. “He loves me.
It’s incredible! I never thought I’d ever find someone I could love and
who would love me back. But, he does,
and I feel like my life is complete.”
Brian grinned and hugged her. “Then I’m really and truly happy for
you. Tell him I said hi and way to go!”
“I will. Just remember,” she told him as she headed
out. “Give her time.”
Two weeks later, as Sienna readied
for her annual trip to Philadelphia, her phone rang. Hoping it wasn’t Brian, she answered it.
“Sienna!” AJ greeted her,
cheerfully.
She smiled. “Hey, how are you? How’s life?”
“Pretty good. I wanted to give you really good news. I’m going on Oprah to talk about my whole alcohol and drug abuse. I never got a chance to publicly address
it. The guys did everything for me,
then. Now, it’s my chance,” he told her
excitedly.
“Are you ready for it?” Sienna asked
him.
“Absolutely. I’ve thought about it, and I think that doing
this will help me and others out there who are struggling with addiction, too,”
AJ answered.
“When are you doing it?”
“We’re taping the day after
tomorrow. I tried to get a hold of the
guys, but I can’t find them. I just
wanted them to know what’s going on, you know,” he explained.
Sienna nodded. “I know.
It would be good to have them support you on this.”
“Yeah, but they’ve got lives of
their own, too. Kevin’s getting ready
for the baby, Nick’s in London for something or other, and Howie’s got real
estate and Liv. Which I hear is going
really well,” AJ remarked.
Sienna smiled. Of all the terrible things that had happened
in the past few weeks, the one good thing was hearing that Liv and Howie loved
each other. It was wonderful to hear her
best friend was in love. If it made her
ache with envy, she quashed it. “Yeah,
it’s going really well. They’re in
love.”
“Well if that doesn’t beat out
everything else! There’s no one I know
that deserves it more than them. Besides
you and Rok, of course,” AJ added.
Sienna sighed. “No, not Brian and me. Liv and Howie really do deserve it, though.”
“What’s wrong, Sienna? What
happened?” AJ’s concern was clear.
“Nothing at all. Everything’s as it should be, AJ,” she
reassured him cheerily. “You worry about
Oprah. Just know that I’m supporting you the whole
way, okay?”
“Thanks, Si. And you should know that if something’s
wrong, you can always tell me,” AJ reminded her.
“Thanks, AJ.”
When they hung up, Sienna dialed
Brian’s number, hoping that he wouldn’t be at home. When his answering machine came on, she
sighed, relieved, and left a message.
Later that day, Brian heard her
message and knew that, despite the hurt she felt, she still supported his quest
to keep the Boys together. He called
Howie, Nick, and Kevin, letting them know what was going on, and they agreed to
go on the show to surprise AJ. It was
the kind of thing that would really touch him, they knew.
Kevin called Oprah’s office and got
the go ahead easily, especially because Oprah loved any excuse to bring
emotions out on her stage. When they
walked onto the stage and watched AJ’s eyes tear up, all four men knew that
they had been right to come and felt the tears fill their eyes, too. Kevin, the one who had been the most
instrumental in staging an intervention, hugged AJ as the tears flowed down his
cheeks. They sat with Oprah and rehashed
the problems and, in doing so, the Backstreet Boys felt themselves come
together again. Not just in friendship,
but in every other way, they knew that they couldn’t put off being a band any
longer.
That night, they gathered in AJ’s
hotel room and discussed their options for the future.
“I want the Backstreet Boys back,”
Brian said, simply. “I don’t know how
much longer I can handle us not singing, not performing, not being us.”
Howie nodded. “I love my work, guys, but it’s not the same
as being together with everyone. I need
that rush we got onstage when our fans were cheering.”
“Let’s bring us back,” AJ
suggested. “Don’t we all hunger for it?”
he looked around at Nick and Kevin.
Nick nodded. “It’s not the same, doing things without you
guys. I realized the reason Now or Never tanked was because I can’t
perform on stage without you guys. It’s
just not the same,” he repeated.
They looked at Kevin. Kevin sighed.
“Kristin’s going to give birth in less than a month, and I just don’t
want to miss out on our baby’s life. I
want to sing again, too, don’t get me wrong.
I love you guys, but I need my wife and child, too.”
Brian nodded. “Fair enough.
Except we can’t be a band without Big Brother riding herd on us. We may be grown men, but we still need you looking
out for us, Kevin.”
“He’s going to be looking out for
his baby, now,” Howie reminded them.
“Kevin’s not going to be just ours anymore. As much as I don’t want to admit it, his
first priority is his family. We come
second. Right?” he asked Kevin.
Kevin ran a hand through his hair,
wearily. “My first priority is my
family, but that includes you, too. The
thing is, if we decide to record another album and do another tour, it’ll take
at least a year to put it all together, right?
Maybe, maybe I can spend that year with Kris and our baby, and, later,
they could come on tour with us. I think
Kris’ll go for that.”
Nick grinned. “I think it’ll be cool to have a kid around
while we’re touring. What do you think?”
he asked the others.
“I think it sounds great. We’re back in business, boys. Excuse me, men,” AJ corrected himself and
watched the smiles spread on his fellow bandmates’ faces.
“There’s just one other thing,”
Brian said. “I’ve been talking to
Provident Records about doing a gospel album.
It’s something I’ve really wanted to do, and, if you think it’ll
interfere with our stuff, I won’t do it,” he added.
Nick shook his head. “No way, man.
We are not going that route again.
If this is something you really want to do, then do it. We’ll support you one hundred percent. Right guys?”
When the others nodded, Nick smiled.
“See? If you need time to record
that album, take it. We’ll work
something out, and I’ll be the first to buy it,” he promised.
“Thanks guys. Really,” Brian thanked them, sincerely.
Howie pretended to dust his
hands. “Well, now that that’s all been
cleared, I think we have to think about who we want managing us. We fired The Firm, remember?”
They all remembered and, after much
discussion, agreed that Johnny Wright had been the best manager they’d had in
twelve years. Kevin agreed to call
Johnny and speak to him on their behalf.
When Nick complained about being hungry, they decided on room service
because none of them wanted to separate.
This was the first time all five were together in the same room since
the day they had argued about firing The Firm, and all of them cherished the
togetherness they felt.
Over dinner, AJ asked Howie how Liv
was and was rewarded with Howie’s huge grin.
“I’m going to ask her to marry me,”
Howie told them, excitedly.
Nick’s brows lifted. “Whoa, D, didn’t you just start dating six
months ago? Aren’t you moving a little
fast?”
Howie shook his head. “When it’s right, it’s right. When I look at her, I know she’s the one I’ll
love for the rest of my life.”
“And she feels the same way?” Kevin
asked him.
“Livvy’s a bundle of joy when she
talks about Howie. He’s like the
freaking sun, moon, and stars for her,” Brian told them, smiling. “It’s really great. I’m happy for you, D. If you ask her to marry you, I think she’ll
say yes before you even finish asking her.”
“I hope so,” Howie said. “By the way, how’s Sienna, Brian?”
At Brian’s pained expression, AJ
shook his head. “I knew it, I knew there
was trouble in paradise. What happened,
Rok?”
“It was my fault,” Brian explained
what had happened over Christmas. “And,
now, she won’t even look at me, speak to me, or anything! I need her back, and
I don’t know how to fix it.”
“I think you need to learn a lesson
from this,” Kevin told him. “Keep your
hands off of Leigh. She’s like poison to
your relationship with Sienna. If Liv
told you Sienna’s insecure about the way you feel about her, then try not to
give her a reason to be insecure.”
“I know, but I don’t think I’ll ever
get her back after this. She won’t even
let me explain,” Brian moaned. “I just
don’t know why she’d be insecure about how I feel about her, though.”
“Don’t you?” Howie wondered. “Liv said that the issue Sienna’s helped you
with the most was the way you felt about Leighanne. If that was the beginning of your
relationship, I’m not surprised that she feels uncertain about everything. Besides, Sienna apparently thinks that,
because she’s just a florist, she doesn’t hold any special charm for you. That you’re just amusing yourself and keeping
your mind off of Leighanne.”
“What?! Oh, God. Did I really give her that idea? But she would’ve kicked me out before this if
she thought that. Sienna’s no spineless
woman,” Brian said.
“I don’t know, Bri, but maybe Liv’s
right. Just give her time, then try to
talk to her again,” AJ suggested. “So,
Kevin, how is the wonderfully pregnant Kristin?” he turned to Kevin, changing
the subject.
Kevin broke into smiles then, and
they spent the rest of the night hearing about the ultrasounds, feeling the
baby kick, and every test they had taken to make sure their baby would be
healthy.
Two days
later, Brian returned to Lexington and went to search for Sienna. When he didn’t find her at home or in the
shop, he began to worry. However, he ran
into Faith at the grocery store and was told that Sienna was in Philadelphia,
taking care of her parents’ restaurant, which was something she did every
January for two weeks. Brian wondered
why Sienna hadn’t told him about the restaurant before, but he hopped on the
first flight to Philadelphia.
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