Chapter
2
Love is…
Kisses in a bean bag chair
Two of us with no one there…
The only that keeps me sane
At the end of the day is that
I’ve got you…
Brian pressed the buttons on the security keypad outside the gates
to his home and felt more secure as the gates opened. No one could get in unless they knew the
number, and Sienna had promised that only the two of them would ever know
it. He drove his car, the BMW he’d
bought to replace the one he’d lost in an accident nearly three years before,
and parked it next to Sienna’s. He had
decided to break from the tour and fly home for the day he’d had in between his
St. Louis and Chicago shows. The feeling
that something was going to go wrong had increased, and he knew it wouldn’t go
away unless he went home.
“Honey!” Brian called, pushing open the front door. “I’m home!”
“Brian?” Sienna’s confused voice sounded from the back of the
house. Following it, he heard the
pitter-patter of two sets of feet and grinned as his daughters came rushing
down the hall from the kitchen.
“Da! Da!” Kara and Serena gurgled and attached themselves to his
legs. They were petite and fairy-like,
and both wore little sweaters and mini-jeans.
Sienna had discovered that Kara had slightly pointy, elfin ears, while
Serena simply had rounded ears. At the
moment, as they laughed up at him, there was no difference between the
two. He scooped them into his arms and
grinned as Sienna came into the foyer carrying Luke, who blinked at Brian.
“Hey,” Sienna smiled as she kissed him. “This is quite the surprise. We weren’t expecting you for another, oh,
four weeks.”
Brian shrugged. “I needed
to see you guys. I’ve missed you,” he
murmured kissing her again. He would’ve
deepened it if it hadn’t been for the three children they held between
them. The twins clapped, and Luke yawned
and gurgled happily. “Well, guess
that’ll have to wait until they’re all sleeping, huh?” He looked down at the
twins in his arms. “I’ll never get used
to how fast you guys grow, you know,” he told them and kissed their foreheads. He grinned over at Luke. “Hey little guy,” he murmured, stroking his
finger down the baby’s cheek. He looked
up at Sienna. “They keeping you up at
night?”
She shook her head.
“Surprisingly, no. Kara and
Serena are out by nine, and Luke usually falls asleep as soon as I feed him,
which is usually around nine-thirty.
During the day, Shane usually takes them when I go into the shop. He says they’re fantastic.” She looked at him quizzically. “Baby, not that I’m complaining or anything,
but aren’t you supposed to be on tour somewhere?”
Brian shrugged. “Yeah, but
I needed to see y’all. I don’t know how
long I’m going to be able to keep touring if I miss you this much every time I
leave.”
Sienna sighed. “Brian,” she
began, but he cut her off.
“It’s okay. I’m still going
to do it, but I’ll just make sure it’s more flexible. Such as today,” he said, setting down the
twins who had begun wriggling around, antsy to get off and play. “The show in St. Louis was last night, and
the one in Chicago isn’t until tomorrow night.
I wheeled and dealed with Holly and we agreed that I could come home
until tomorrow at eleven, when I have a flight back. So, until then,” he began, lifting Luke out
of her arms, “I’m all yours.”
“All mine, huh?” she said, giving him a wicked grin. “I think I can come up with some things to do
with you.”
“Lead on, oh mistress,” Brian bowed and grinned when Luke gurgled
again at the movement. “You like that,
buddy?” he said to his son. “Yeah, mommy
owes me, then.” And he grinned at Sienna as she rolled her eyes.
“Well, slave of mine, are you planning on going to see Livvy and
Ryan in the hospital? They’re not
supposed to come home until tomorrow morning,” Sienna reminded him.
“Oh, yeah!” Brian remembered.
“I can’t believe Howie’s a dad! Yeah, of course, I’ll go see them. When are visiting hours over?” he asked her.
Sienna glanced at a clock set on a table. “You’ve still got a couple hours. Why don’t you head over now, and I’ll get these
guys fed, then we’ll have our own relaxing time.”
“Sounds like a plan—except I want to be here to help feed
them. I’ve missed that fun event, you
know,” Brian grinned.
Sienna shrugged. “Sure,
that works, too. Tell Livvy and Howie I
said hello.”
Brian handed Luke back to her and headed for the door. “I will.”
***
After finding out Liv’s room number, Brian made his way to the
fourth floor, maternity ward and walked down the hall looking for the right
room. When he found it, he knocked and
waited for the “Come in!”
Liv smiled when he walked into the room. “Well, look who it is! I didn’t think we’d
see you until April. What are you doing
home?”
Brian kissed her cheek and grinned at the baby that slept in her
arms. “I came back to see this little
guy. Wow,” he admired the baby. “He looks like Howie, except with black
hair.”
“Yeah, that’s what everyone says,” Liv told him.
Howie walked into the room, then, and did a double take when he
saw Brian. Then he smiled, hugely. “Rok! Man, I didn’t think we’d see you for
another month. Not until it was time for
us to go on tour.”
Brian shook his head as he gave a Howie a quick hug. “Nah.
I decided I needed to see the latest member of the quickly-growing
Backstreet family. And I must say, you and
Livvy did a fantastic job. Although, I
think most of the credit goes to her,” he added, winking at Liv.
“Uh-huh,” Howie smiled. “It
does. She’s the one that did all the
work.”
“That’s right,” Liv agreed.
“He just played around, while I had to do the hard part.”
Howie leaned over and kissed her.
“You know if there was a way to transfer pain, I would’ve done it,” he
told her.
“Yeah, yeah, yeah,” Liv waved it off, but her expression softened
a little as she looked at him, adoringly.
Brian couldn’t help but grin at the two of them. And to think, they may never have met if it
hadn’t been for him and Sienna.
A nurse came in, nodded at Brian and Howie, and turned to
Liv. “Mrs. Dorough, the doctor will be
in soon to examine you and make sure everything is okay. We’ll take your son to the nursery, and you
can have him back as soon as we do the full, second day check up on him.”
Liv nodded. “Sounds good,”
she told the nurse, who smiled and left the room. “Well guys, I think it’s time for you to
leave for a bit. Do you mind?”
Brian shook his head, while Howie leaned over and squeezed her
hand. “I’ll be back, soon.”
***
As they sat in the waiting room until Liv’s exam was done, Howie
looked over at Brian. “Seriously, I’m
glad you came, but I didn’t buy all that crap about wanting to see Ryan being
your only reason, you know,” Howie raised a brow expectantly.
Brian sighed. “It’s about
those phone calls,” he began.
“I kind of figured it was.
I thought you switched your number?” Howie wondered.
“I know, I did,” Brian told him.
“But, somehow, I got another message yesterday. I’m starting to get nervous about this. This guy found out my new number, who’s to
say he won’t find out the code for the gates?”
Howie squeezed his shoulder reassuringly. “Relax, Brian. Shane, Harry, and I have been going over to
the house a lot. And Shane’s got the
kids all day. Besides, when Si’s in the
shop, Marlena’s there the entire time.
Nothing’s going to go wrong. And
if you have such a bad feeling about this, why don’t you tell Sienna?”
“Ha!” Brian shook his head.
“If I told her, she’d give me this look and tell me that she can take
care of herself and the kids. And she
can, I know she can. It’s just—you never
know. I have this itch, like something’s
about to go terribly wrong.”
“If it makes you feel better, AJ’s coming down the day after
tomorrow. He could stay at your house
instead of with Kevin and Kristin. How’s
that sound?” Howie asked him.
“I think it might make me feel better,” Brian said slowly. Then, he brightened. “Actually, knowing that there’s someone there
with them will make me feel a whole hell of a lot better. Thanks Howie! I’ll clear it with Sienna and
talk to AJ. She just can’t know why he’s
really staying there.”
Howie smiled. “I think we
can pull that off. I promise nothing is
going to happen to your family, Brian.
It’s just a prank caller who’s being a real bastard about it. When he realizes he’s not going to get a rise
out of you, he’ll probably back out.”
“Probably,” Brian agreed.
***
Where I can be myself
You connect with me
Like nobody else
Brian poured two glasses of white wine and passed one over to
Sienna, who sat in the middle of their bed.
Then, he got onto it and sat next to her. Their kids were sleeping after having been
fed. Which had been quite the event,
Brian remembered with a grin. Kara had
thrown peas at Serena who had proceeded to burst into tears. Of course, she had gotten even by knocking
over Kara’s sippy cup so the cap came off and spilled water over her twin. As Kara had howled, Brian had taken her and
fed her in the dining room away from her sister. Sienna had simply shaken her head and given
him an “And you thought it would be fun” look.
He had shrugged and told her it still was. Luke had been even easier to take care of
because he just needed to be changed, which Brian had gladly done. Sienna had started him on formula, so he had
fed the baby. He couldn’t believe how
lucky he was to have such a wonderful family.
The kids were healthy and Sienna was the only woman he could ever
imagine having by his side.
“Ryan’s so tiny,” Brian told her, turning his thoughts to the
present.
Sienna grinned. “Please,
it’s not like Luke wasn’t smaller. He’s
still little, but that’s probably because he’s only two and a half months
old. Ryan’s a good size. I’m glad Liv and Howie have such a healthy
baby, too.”
“Thank God,” Brian murmured.
He turned to her, then, and gently turning her head towards him, kissed
her. Before either of them knew it, the
kiss had gone deep enough to make them want more. They hadn’t made love since October when
Sienna had been too pregnant, and both of them were acutely aware of that fact.
Sienna sat back breathing shakily.
“I’m going to spill this wine if we’re not careful,” she warned him.
Brian lifted a brow. “Do we want to be careful? I mean, do we have
to be careful, now?” he added, thinking that it had been two and a half months
since she had given birth and two months since her surgery.
“I think I’ll be okay, Brian,” she told him and smiled. He reached over and took the wineglass from
her hand and set both on the side table.
“If you’re sure,” he murmured, drawing her into his arms. “It’s been so long.”
Sienna fell into his next kiss and moaned a little as his lips
traveled down her neck. “It has been,
and I need you, Brian. Don’t hold back.”
He pressed his lips to the hollow of her throat. “I won’t.”
She wrapped her arms around him as his lips moved back to hers,
and they took, hungry for more. His
hands slid from her face, to her shoulders, where he gently pushed the straps
of her tank top off then slipped the top over head. When he went to lean her back into the
pillows, she tugged on the hem of his shirt until it was off.
Pressed skin to skin, both reveled in the feeling that they had
missed over the past few months. Brian
pressed his lips to hers again as his hands traveled over her. When he cupped her breasts, she moaned. It had been too long for both of them, Brian
thought, then lowered his mouth to her.
But she was still the same. Still
the same woman he had given his heart to for always.
“Sienna,” he murmured, his voice hoarse with passion. “It’s still the same. You’re all I’ll ever want,” he murmured,
pressing his lips over her heart.
She opened her eyes and looked into his. “So are you,” she told him and brought his
lips back to hers.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispered as his lips trailed over her
face, then down her throat. “I can’t get
enough of you.”
She twisted until she was straddling him and wriggled out of the
sweatpants she wore. Pressing her lips
over his heart, she smiled up into his eyes.
“I love you, Brian. Only you,”
she murmured and helped him drag off the last pieces of clothing he wore. She trailed her fingers over the tattoo on
his arm. “Rock of Ages,” she whispered. “My
rock.”
“Always,” Brian promised as he turned so she was pressed back
underneath him. As he positioned
himself, his lips returned to hers, and her eyes closed. Brian tried to control his breathing. “Sienna,” he managed to say. “Sienna, look at me. I need you to look at me,” he whispered,
hoarsely.
When her eyes opened and locked onto his, he slid into her. “I love you,” he murmured. “Forever and always,” he added and watched
the tears fill her eyes.
“I love you,
Brian,” she managed to say before she crested and all she could see was the
blue of his eyes. As her arms wrapped
around him, Brian pressed his lips to hers.
The last thing he remembered, besides the impossible green of her eyes,
was feeling as though it was the last time they would ever be like this. Then, he couldn’t even remember that as he
went deeper and was lost.
Lyrics from “Love Is” Backstreet Boys
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