Chapter 27
“Ouch.”
Brian
didn’t bother to look over as Nick slid into a chair next to him. “Shut up, Nick.”
“And
touchy, too.” Nick tsked a little. “I’m
telling you, that Kara. She’s got a mean
left jab like you wouldn’t believe.”
“That looks
like somebody scratched his face to hell, Nicky,” AJ corrected him, settling in
at a chair across the table from the other two.
He peered at Brian’s cheek. “So,
what happened?”
Brian
glared at the other two. “Nothing. Drop it.”
“Drop
what?” Kevin sat next to AJ. “Oh, wow.”
He whistled lightly. “That’s quite the
fight you must have gotten into, Bri.
What happened?”
Brian let
out a frustrated sound. “Look, can we
just drop whatever happened to my face?
We’re not here to talk about my face, we’re talking about our tour. Where the hell is D?”
The other
men exchanged worried glances as Brian walked to the door to search for
Howie. Brian was edgier than they’d ever
seen him before, and they’d all seen each other at their lowest. This, though, was new and more worrisome
because they knew Brian was still dealing with Sienna’s return and the fact
that she’d been sexually abused. The
fact that he wasn’t talking about the mysterious, red slash marks across his
cheek was troubling because he would normally have told them anything that
would have gone wrong.
He knew
they were thinking about him. Brian
paced outside the office that they were meeting in to discuss their impending
tour. He knew they were worried about
the painful marks that were still visible on his face. The therapist appointment had been a week
ago, and, even with Mac’s doctoring, the scratches continued to sting and were
bright red. They’d been covered by a
bandage, but he’d taken it off after feeling ridiculous wearing a giant, white
bandage on his face.
He hadn’t
been able to see Sienna in the past week as she had stopped eating dinner with
him and would leave the house at ungodly hours in the morning to go to the
shop. When she was home, she’d take care
of the children if he weren’t around, which was rarely. She was avoiding him like the plague, and he
was getting tired of it. He loved her,
but he knew they weren’t supposed to avoid each other, either. Knowing that if he didn’t get out of the
house, he’d go crazy from the tension, he’d called the other guys and arranged
for a meeting to discuss their tour.
Which was
why he was in LA—across the country from his problems. Because AJ’s promotion schedule had him in
LA, the other guys had decided to meet up there. So, he would have to face them now, Brian
thought. And he’d have to deflect and
evade all their questions. Much as he
loved them and knew they’d do anything for him, he couldn’t tell them. He just…couldn’t.
“Brian?”
He whirled
around to find Howie watching him with concern clearly etched across his
features.
“Howie!
You’re late! You were supposed to be here twenty minutes ago!” He couldn’t stop
himself from sounding testy and tried to control the impatience he was
constantly feeling.
Howie
raised a brow. “How do the scratches
feel?”
Of course,
Howie knew about the “incident”. Sienna
had told Liv what had happened, Liv had told Howie, and Howie had come over
immediately to make sure Brian had been okay.
Of course, he wasn’t okay, but he hadn’t been able to tell Howie
that. He didn’t want them worrying about
him when he was already worried enough for all of them. Nevertheless, Howie did know, and Brian
didn’t want to chance the rest of the guys finding out. He wasn’t sure he could handle the sympathy.
“Look, I
didn’t tell the other guys what happened, and I don’t want to worry them, so if
we could just keep this between the two of us, that would be great,” Brian
replied.
“It’s not
fair to them, Bri.”
Brian
stopped, his hand on the doorknob, and looked over at Howie. “Right now, life isn’t exactly fair, D. I’ve given up on how to make things any
better and placed all my trust in God to get my family through this. I just can’t drag y’all into this, too. Please, try to understand.”
Howie
contemplated this for a moment, knowing that Brian was in more pain than he let
on. Finally, he nodded. “Okay.
I won’t bring it up. I promise.”
Brian
managed a half smile. “Thanks, D. It means a lot.”
“No
problem.”
Brian
pushed open the door and pasted his usual smile across his face. “Look who I found in the hallway!”
Howie
followed him into the room and, greeting the other guys, slid into a chair
across from Kevin, on Brian’s other side.
He noted the glances the others sent in Brian’s direction, worry obvious
in them. He shrugged when they silently
asked him if he knew what was going on.
He’d promised Brian, after all.
“So,” Brian
sat. “I called this meeting because we
have a tour that should have started a week and a half ago. What happened to it?”
Kevin
leaned forward. “We postponed it.”
“Because of
the kidnapping,” Brian guessed, and the others nodded. “Okay, well, that’s over now. What are y’all planning on doing now?”
AJ
frowned. “What do you mean ‘y’all’?
You’re part of the group, too. We make
these decisions together, B.”
“I know,”
Brian began. “But I think we’re going to
have to work out a different plan with this tour.”
Howie felt
alarmed. What was Brian about to
suggest?
“Well,
while the investigation was still open, we discussed postponing the tour until
the end of May. At which point, we would
have our shows at the same venues, in more or less the same order unless
something didn’t work out. Then, those
shows would simply be tacked onto the end of the tour or possibly canceled,”
Kevin explained. “I think WEG worked out
the new schedule already, and it’s on the official website, too,” he added.
“I see.”
Brian looked around at the rest of them.
“And if I was still not ready to leave my family alone? After all, the end of May would only give me
a month and a half with them.”
Nick spoke
up then. “We figured that if you weren’t
ready, we’d just postpone it until you were.
It’s all for one and one for all, Brian.
You know that.”
“How long
did you plan on postponing the tour?”
AJ was
beginning to feel nervous now. “As long
as you needed. Realistically, we know
you can’t postpone forever, but we’re willing to be flexible.”
Brian
nodded. “Could flexible mean beginning
the newly scheduled tour and finishing it?” He paused. “Without me?”
All four
pairs of eyes glued themselves to him as all four pairs of eyebrows shot
up.
“What the
hell…?” AJ couldn’t ask the question.
Was hoping they’d heard wrong.
“You heard
me, fellas,” Brian reassured them. “I
think we should have the tour as it is now, but you should do it without me. I can’t leave, right now. Until everything with my wife is resolved,
until she stops having nightmares, I will not and cannot leave. End of story.”
“Brian, do
you really think we could do a whole tour without you? I mean, yeah, we can do
a show here and there without one of us, but a whole tour?!” Kevin shook his head.
“Fuck no.”
Brian
stood. “Look, we can’t push this tour
back indefinitely. We’re losing money
this way”
“Fuck
money!” AJ stood, too. “Do you think
money really matters as much as us being together does?”
“Guys,”
Brian began but was cut off.
“I’ve gotta
side with them, Bri,” Nick told him. “We
won’t postpone the tour if you don’t come with us. We’ll cancel the whole thing. Right?” He
glanced around at the others for support.
Howie
nodded. “We don’t need to do the
tour. As it stands, we’ve let a lot of
time go between the album release and this tour. We might just be better off letting it go and
recording the next album as planned, starting in July. Do you think you could join us for that,
Brian?”
Brian hated
disappointing them. Hated that look he
could see in their eyes as he let them down, but he couldn’t leave Sienna and
the kids. Not when everything was on
such precarious grounds.
“I feel
like I’m walking a tightrope,” he murmured, slumping down in his chair. “I don’t want to let you down, but I can’t
leave my family, either. You have to
understand that.”
“We do,”
Kevin said gently. “I think Howie’s got
a great idea. Our fans might not be
thrilled, initially, but they’ll support us if we come clean as to why we want
to cancel the tour. Plus, the prospect
of another album might do wonders to change their minds.” He smiled a little.
“Yeah,” AJ
said slowly. “I hate to be self-centered
and all, but, if we cancel the tour, I might be able to promote my album more.”
Brian
nodded. “It would, wouldn’t it? That
would be really good for you.
Congratulations, by the way. I
heard it hit number seven after this past week.”
AJ
grinned. “Awesome, isn’t it? First week
out, and it’s hit in the top ten! So, yeah, canceling the tour would be okay in
my book. Anyone else?”
Howie
shrugged. Nick looked over at Kevin,
then sighed. “Yeah, it wouldn’t be a bad
idea. I’ve been wanting to experiment
some more with a couple new artists on my label. So, what the hell, let’s cancel. Kevin?”
“Y’all want
to get rid of the tour, so let’s get rid of it.
I wouldn’t mind more family time, either. I love what we do, but we have to put
ourselves first, too.” He sighed. “But
damn. It’s going to be a nightmare to
explain to Johnny, Jive, and the world.”
“We can do
it,” Nick declared, and the others agreed.
AJ patted
Brian’s shoulder. “See? Everything’s
going to work out. It usually does in
the end.”
Brian
smiled a little. He really did hope so
because he wasn’t sure if he could handle the tension in his home for too much
longer.
As Kevin
began to divide the list of people they needed to contact in order to
officially cancel the tour, Brian’s cell phone beeped. When he glanced down at the caller ID, his
heart sped up.
“Guys,” he
stood. “I gotta take this. I’ll be back in a bit.” When they nodded, he
slipped out into the hall and flipped open the phone.
“Hello?”
***
Sienna
stroked her fingers over Serena’s curls as the little girl napped in her crib,
her siblings sleeping peacefully in their own cribs. The sunlight was streaming in through the
half-closed blinds, and the silence was…Scary, she thought.
It reminded
her of the afternoon she and her children had been kidnapped. Everything was almost exactly the same, the
sunlight, the quiet was almost identical to that idyllic scene that had gone so
horribly wrong. Now, she was standing in
the room where her children were napping, the door to the nursery was locked,
and she was still afraid that someone could swoop in through the window and
take them again.
Which was
ridiculous, Sienna scolded herself.
Hadn’t Brian installed a ridiculously thorough system, complete with
security cameras and guard that had been set up in a newly built booth situated
by the back gate where he’d be less conspicuous. At the time, she had thought that she would
be okay with only a new system, but, now, with Brian gone, she was freaking
out.
And where
had her husband gone off to? Sienna wondered.
He had left her a note on the refrigerator the previous morning that had
basically told her that he’d be gone for a couple days and to call his cell if
she needed anything. She couldn’t blame
him for being a little distant, Sienna knew.
After all, she’d wrecked his beautiful face, hadn’t she? She hadn’t
actually seen it face to face during the day, but she had sneaked into his room
while he’d been sleeping. What she’d
seen had shocked, appalled, and shamed her.
She’d hurt her husband when all he’d wanted to do was help her heal, and
the shame continued to burn in her.
She’d tried
to think of what had happened in Dr. Lewis’ office that day, one week ago. She’d been rehashing what had happened the
day Scott had discovered that she’d sent Brian a message, and the usual pain
had struck her. When she’d felt his
hands touch her, she’d frozen. Looking
up at him, she hadn’t seen Brian, she’d seen Scott. It was irrational to her now, though Dr.
Lewis kept insisting that it was good that she’d seen her fear and relived
it. That she’d fought it this time
instead of letting herself be defeated.
And talk
about fighting it, she thought now, as she settled into a rocking chair to
stare out the window at her gardens. She’d
physically slapped back at Scott and, in the process, mangled her husband’s
left cheek. He’d bled profusely, and
she’d seen the shirt covered with his blood in the trashcan in the laundry
room. Seeing it had shamed her to no
end, and she’d avoided him ever since.
She’d told Livvy what had happened, of course, so Howie had come over to
talk to Brian. She didn’t know the
result of that discussion, but Brian hadn’t approached her in the past week, so
she was figuring that he was wary of her now.
If only she
could change it. If only she could go
all the way back to the twentieth of February and be more careful. She could make sure that everything was
secure, that the back gate’s combination was working properly, that all the
alarms on the doors and windows were working properly. If only,
Sienna thought and, closing her eyes, let the sunlight play across her face.
The light
was warm, and she let herself drift in the feeling of being safe, content for
the moment. Her children were dozing
peacefully, and her world was at rest.
When the tinkling sound reached her ears, she imagined it was the wind
chimes she had hung up outside and listened to their music.
Which was
why the smothering sensation surprised her.
The darkness was no longer warm but cold, suffocating. She couldn’t breathe, and a sickly sweet
smell was permeating her senses, making her feel dizzy, lightheaded. Her arms and legs felt heavy, and weakness
was seeping into her, preventing her from fighting back. Oh God,
not again, she managed to think before everything fell apart.
Sienna woke
gasping for air and drenched in cold sweat.
She looked around at the nursery and, rushing over to the cribs, ran her
hands over her children to reassure herself that they were safe. When she’d convinced herself they were fine,
she dashed through the house, making sure everything was locked. As a final check, she called the security
guard and made sure that nothing was wrong with the cameras.
“No,
ma’am,” he assured her. “I’ve been
watching them all day, and everything’s fine.
I promise I’ll let you know the instant something is wrong.”
“Okay,
thank you,” Sienna murmured and hung up.
She paced
the kitchen still feeling too wound up to settle down. Why did she have Saturdays off anyway? If she
were at work, she wouldn’t be worrying about any of this. Of course, she wouldn’t be with her children,
either, she reminded herself and headed back up to the nursery to check on
them.
On the way
up, she eyed the telephone sitting on a table in the foyer. Should she call Livvy? No, she shook the idea
off as soon as she’d thought it. Liv had
been her rock more times than she could count in the past few weeks, and she
had a baby to care for on top of everything.
She couldn’t impose on Liv again.
When the
realization came to her that the person she really needed to hear was the one
person she knew she could always count on, she was surprised at herself. How had her instincts gone from “No Man” to
“I need to hear his voice, let him comfort me”? Hadn’t she hurt him? How could she face him, knowing that, even if
he were with her, she might not be able to let him hold her? Whatever happened, she knew she needed to
just feel close to him again.
Without
giving herself a chance to rethink it, Sienna grabbed the telephone and dialed
the number.
***
Brian
rested his forehead against the wall and listened to the voice on the other
end. What was going on? he couldn’t help
but think. All of a sudden, their
relationship had gone from no communication to her calling him for help, for
comfort. Of course, despite the events
of the past few months, he’d always help her.
Unconditionally. Because that’s
the way he was. Fiercely loyal and
unbelievably generous with his heart.
“I’ll be
there as soon as I can,” he promised.
There was a
tiny sigh of relief. “Thanks,
Brian. I love you,” she told him, the
smile detectable in her words.
He couldn’t
help but smile, too. “Yeah, you better!”
he joked. “I love you, too. I’ll be there. I promise.”
Hanging up,
he stood for a moment, absorbing the sheer madness of the past week. He’d been witness to Sienna’s horrible pain,
a pain which had lashed out at him, unknowingly. Since then, she’d avoided him, and he’d made
no move to seek her out, either. Then,
he’d left for LA, leaving her a note saying to call him if she needed
anything. To end the week of personal
surprises, the phone call was a welcome one.
Just goes to show God can do
anything He wants, he reminded himself.
Brian
pushed open the door to the conference room again and strode in to find all
four men on their cell phones. They were
busy trying to arrange a way to cancel every show on the tour, and he felt
ashamed that he was forcing them to put their dreams aside for his
happiness. He knew they loved him and
truly didn’t mind, but…still.
Kevin hung
up first and looked over at his cousin, a questioning look in his eyes.
“I have to
go, guys,” Brian began.
The other
three glanced over at him now.
“Where?”
Nick wondered. “Who called?”
Brian sighed. “You’ll never guess.”
“Who?”
Howie asked again.
Brian
looked down at the cell phone in his hand then up at his brothers.
“Kelly. She’s in the hospital. She wouldn’t tell me why, but she said it was
important that I come. So, I have to
go.”
***
Sienna
waited impatiently after hitting the button to open the front gate. A car careened up the drive and parked
sloppily next to her own. The driver
emerged, and, unable to wait, she opened the door and hurried out.
“Sienna!
What’s going on?”
He was
worried, she knew. He’d always worry
about her, and it couldn’t be helped.
Cousin or not, he was the brother of her heart. She didn’t feel afraid as she rushed towards
him, nor did she feel alarm as his arms enveloped her in a hug.
“Shane. Thank God, you’re here.”
***